at work, at blogging
so, i'm in the top 500 players on the east coast of warcraft 3, i'm aware i have no life.
had a long talk on the phone with laura last night. for some reason i just can't make her laugh like she makes me, she can make me laugh like the dickens.
a lot of innuendo, but who doesn't like innuendo?
she talked to me while i went to the grocery store, she talked to me while i got gas, she talked to me while i almost got pulled over, she talked to me while i drank grape soda and changed clothes.
i talked to her about my life, and type of girl i liked, she sounded interested.
now i want to know about her. she said you'll find out in time. darn, did i just give up too much information about myself? my secret identity, its out now.
no class today, friday, until pierce starts, but hell, i still have work at 8 am. that is gonna bite me in the ass one day.
i guess i could have gone to visit her in texas, considering labor day. its the thought that counts.
friday or saturday i'm going to play tennis with jenn, what a nice friend to have.
well, i cleaned my room. i did the dishes, and i've done my homework, such a good little boy, eh?
my bike is broken. my guitars need repair. my car needs work. so many more things to do. i hate chores.
should i go to nicks wake?
Thursday, August 28, 2003
Heh, thanks for the blog description, Jeffrey D. T.
I woke up at 4 today, no apparent reason, so i thought i'd do my blog for the day.
random bill cosby skits, she stood up in the stirups, the chocolate cake, and little jeffrey
or as i get a kick out of calling him, Mr. Resevior Tip.
anyway,
Did you guys see Mars? What a ripoff eh? It was bright, and it was orangy, won't see that for another 60,000 years.
If i was Stifler i'd say Mars can blow me.
(enter the MLA BA.E writing style)
Now, theres some things missing from my spurted cohorted dreams that push the ever so reality of life out of the envolope, spilling out onto the table for all to see here.. like getting junk mail in the afternoon, you sit there and sort through it all, look for that one gem, that ends up being a bill, or junk mail disquised as an actual letter.
You never really get a real letter. You just think you do. And when you do, you keep it until you lose it anyway.
And in the empty shoebox that is the mind, you're potential for storage is infinite, but taking out all the letters and finding them and remembering them at the same time is the hard part. Clutter can cloud cleverly.
Is hate really better than ignorance?
Why did grace really come down to see my band? was it pity? was it curious? i'm glad she remembered my guitar. that says more than words. But somehow i don't think it was to see me in a putrid state belt out semi-forgetable simplistic bantering music. Was it a gesture of goodwill? Did she really mean to say, "hey we can still be friends, just stay on your side of the fucking world, and i'll take my spaceship and go see you sometime. " ? i don't really think it was that, but
No doubt her friends and family still consider me witless and winless, but i don't think she does. She said she recognized Jenny, and then sometimes i hate the valley for being so small. They both have something in common, they believe in me. Or maybe the reality of it is that they believe in the POTENTIAL of me. i like laura because she liked me even after i told her my deepest shit the first day we met, and there was no world. money didnt matter, clothes, car, nothing did, and i knew off the bat it was genuine. I was stunned by her in her natural state, sweats and glasses and all, i thought she was very luminous. She says a lot of her friends have turned materialistic, i hope she never buys a 400 dollar coach bag, then i'd wear all the ugly nordstrom shirts she wants, :). She liked my hat.
She doesn't really read this i guess. But thats good, its like meeting someone and trying to get to know them speaking back to back. face to face is much better.
Because i don't think i'm all that great in potential, that yet.
Well, they don't have a cantonese class at csun, the only Japanese class is with Snyder-ass. and i don't know what guitar pedology is, so i'll have to forgo music too. 12 units it is. funny, Matt got into snyders class, you can't pity the willing.
I see constantly and consistantly a pattern in my friends, ever since junior high. make some, lose some. get better accuianted, get better assrammed. win some, draw some out of a a fucking hat. open yourself, close your mind.
If you follow the advice of the galactically stupid, you might get the wrong directions to the universe.
I've heard and seen the term, "Characteristically-Lacking", and wonder if i too am a part of the personality-impaired.
I'm picking up a few required books to read now, reading early, and taking diligent notes in class. I like being in school, but i don't like school.
I say things many times for those short of memory. The way you and me are now, trees from the way we were brought up. I saw the error of my ways, and i've gone from pushing people out of line as a snack bar bully, to a somewhat kind and sensitive man, the kind of guy who like long term relationships, and wants to get married someday. the "holy grail" of men.
Hanging around the guys at the apartment does bring out the worst in meeh tho. I'm constantly neandrathallic and insulting, if just to be funny or be funny to myself, i see it and i hate my old ways.
well, there was a lot more stuff i was going to write about. diddy reese obsession sustained, tennis urge still meandering. ramen reserves depleted. yes a lot more stuff, but i guess i chose to be long winded this time around, and you may not have understood much of this long winded blog, but,
i'm content if you just hum along.
i haven't written emails back to some... mike, bonnie, jenn, mom. but secretly i write these long things for you all. i want you all to know me, someday, and i don't mean to seem closed or unfriendly, which some see me as, and i don't want to hide certain feelings. me and grace talked about suicide briefly, is it slightly selfish? i'm glad at least i can call her grace now, instead of "my ex", or "o hated one" or something like that. guess this is truly moving on.
i could do it, but it would be an indignity never to talk about her.
You meet the best people in the strangest places sometimes, like big mike, again what a sad birthday to me it seemed, his 18th, and i could barely be there for him, he didn't have any friends with him and there was del schorcho sauce on his Big Fat Taco that stood for his birthday cake, along with crispy cut fries.
we lifted coronas with lime in nicks memory today, don't know if that was the right thing to do, but it sure made me feel better.
my my, its 5.
I woke up at 4 today, no apparent reason, so i thought i'd do my blog for the day.
random bill cosby skits, she stood up in the stirups, the chocolate cake, and little jeffrey
or as i get a kick out of calling him, Mr. Resevior Tip.
anyway,
Did you guys see Mars? What a ripoff eh? It was bright, and it was orangy, won't see that for another 60,000 years.
If i was Stifler i'd say Mars can blow me.
(enter the MLA BA.E writing style)
Now, theres some things missing from my spurted cohorted dreams that push the ever so reality of life out of the envolope, spilling out onto the table for all to see here.. like getting junk mail in the afternoon, you sit there and sort through it all, look for that one gem, that ends up being a bill, or junk mail disquised as an actual letter.
You never really get a real letter. You just think you do. And when you do, you keep it until you lose it anyway.
And in the empty shoebox that is the mind, you're potential for storage is infinite, but taking out all the letters and finding them and remembering them at the same time is the hard part. Clutter can cloud cleverly.
Is hate really better than ignorance?
Why did grace really come down to see my band? was it pity? was it curious? i'm glad she remembered my guitar. that says more than words. But somehow i don't think it was to see me in a putrid state belt out semi-forgetable simplistic bantering music. Was it a gesture of goodwill? Did she really mean to say, "hey we can still be friends, just stay on your side of the fucking world, and i'll take my spaceship and go see you sometime. " ? i don't really think it was that, but
No doubt her friends and family still consider me witless and winless, but i don't think she does. She said she recognized Jenny, and then sometimes i hate the valley for being so small. They both have something in common, they believe in me. Or maybe the reality of it is that they believe in the POTENTIAL of me. i like laura because she liked me even after i told her my deepest shit the first day we met, and there was no world. money didnt matter, clothes, car, nothing did, and i knew off the bat it was genuine. I was stunned by her in her natural state, sweats and glasses and all, i thought she was very luminous. She says a lot of her friends have turned materialistic, i hope she never buys a 400 dollar coach bag, then i'd wear all the ugly nordstrom shirts she wants, :). She liked my hat.
She doesn't really read this i guess. But thats good, its like meeting someone and trying to get to know them speaking back to back. face to face is much better.
Because i don't think i'm all that great in potential, that yet.
Well, they don't have a cantonese class at csun, the only Japanese class is with Snyder-ass. and i don't know what guitar pedology is, so i'll have to forgo music too. 12 units it is. funny, Matt got into snyders class, you can't pity the willing.
I see constantly and consistantly a pattern in my friends, ever since junior high. make some, lose some. get better accuianted, get better assrammed. win some, draw some out of a a fucking hat. open yourself, close your mind.
If you follow the advice of the galactically stupid, you might get the wrong directions to the universe.
I've heard and seen the term, "Characteristically-Lacking", and wonder if i too am a part of the personality-impaired.
I'm picking up a few required books to read now, reading early, and taking diligent notes in class. I like being in school, but i don't like school.
I say things many times for those short of memory. The way you and me are now, trees from the way we were brought up. I saw the error of my ways, and i've gone from pushing people out of line as a snack bar bully, to a somewhat kind and sensitive man, the kind of guy who like long term relationships, and wants to get married someday. the "holy grail" of men.
Hanging around the guys at the apartment does bring out the worst in meeh tho. I'm constantly neandrathallic and insulting, if just to be funny or be funny to myself, i see it and i hate my old ways.
well, there was a lot more stuff i was going to write about. diddy reese obsession sustained, tennis urge still meandering. ramen reserves depleted. yes a lot more stuff, but i guess i chose to be long winded this time around, and you may not have understood much of this long winded blog, but,
i'm content if you just hum along.
i haven't written emails back to some... mike, bonnie, jenn, mom. but secretly i write these long things for you all. i want you all to know me, someday, and i don't mean to seem closed or unfriendly, which some see me as, and i don't want to hide certain feelings. me and grace talked about suicide briefly, is it slightly selfish? i'm glad at least i can call her grace now, instead of "my ex", or "o hated one" or something like that. guess this is truly moving on.
i could do it, but it would be an indignity never to talk about her.
You meet the best people in the strangest places sometimes, like big mike, again what a sad birthday to me it seemed, his 18th, and i could barely be there for him, he didn't have any friends with him and there was del schorcho sauce on his Big Fat Taco that stood for his birthday cake, along with crispy cut fries.
we lifted coronas with lime in nicks memory today, don't know if that was the right thing to do, but it sure made me feel better.
my my, its 5.
ims from people out of the blue are cool, especially if they talk about random shit,if you ever read this, just im me and say kumquat over and over and over again. i think kumquat is the single handedly most funniest word ever for some reason.
i hope i dont mistake too many people for other people online. online gossip, fun. typing soemthing in the wron IM window meant for someone else, which is embarrassing....NOT FUN!
i copied the white stripes album "elephant" to my hard drive.... in 64 kbs, to the non-nerdy-as-i-am, that means it sounds like shit. good job luke.
gotta go for tonight folks, work becons. yes i am a pitiful wretch, but a pitiful wretch with a paycheck, so ha.
i hope i dont mistake too many people for other people online. online gossip, fun. typing soemthing in the wron IM window meant for someone else, which is embarrassing....NOT FUN!
i copied the white stripes album "elephant" to my hard drive.... in 64 kbs, to the non-nerdy-as-i-am, that means it sounds like shit. good job luke.
gotta go for tonight folks, work becons. yes i am a pitiful wretch, but a pitiful wretch with a paycheck, so ha.
that dry english wit, it is truly funny sometimes, i find it hilarious in the classroom
today, after spending 5 minutes in the wrong classroom and doubly interrupting the professor entering and leaving, i found myself laughing to myself hysterically as my physics teacher struggled with a squeeky pice of chalk and cursing it in his english accent
guess ya had to be there.
today, after spending 5 minutes in the wrong classroom and doubly interrupting the professor entering and leaving, i found myself laughing to myself hysterically as my physics teacher struggled with a squeeky pice of chalk and cursing it in his english accent
guess ya had to be there.
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
*sigh, well i'm going to talk about randomness and the awkwardness of hugs
hugs are awkward, to me, and they should be to you too.
i'd rather kiss someone i care about than give them a hug
if you think about it, the amount of contact goes in reverse of the amount of affection shown
it takes very little contact for a kiss
a little more for a handshake
a little more for holding hands
a little more for an i'm-freinds-with-you hug
and a buttload for a big hug
well, frankly, i'm uncomfortable with the buttload
and yeah........ my randomness, its not as bad as some believe.....
i'm starting to think i should settle down again.... for this girl... again...
but as the great Jenn once said, the randomness is the best part. haha, its like i'm a twinkie and the creamy center is what everybody is yearning for.
Yeah. Last time i settled down for a girl i lost her.
Everybody is scoring bad points with me, but who wants good points all the time all the time?
i am no longer a lifeguard, and i never got paid for half my work, JEWS!!! lol jk =)
you know what else, work at 8 am sucks :P
hugs are awkward, to me, and they should be to you too.
i'd rather kiss someone i care about than give them a hug
if you think about it, the amount of contact goes in reverse of the amount of affection shown
it takes very little contact for a kiss
a little more for a handshake
a little more for holding hands
a little more for an i'm-freinds-with-you hug
and a buttload for a big hug
well, frankly, i'm uncomfortable with the buttload
and yeah........ my randomness, its not as bad as some believe.....
i'm starting to think i should settle down again.... for this girl... again...
but as the great Jenn once said, the randomness is the best part. haha, its like i'm a twinkie and the creamy center is what everybody is yearning for.
Yeah. Last time i settled down for a girl i lost her.
Everybody is scoring bad points with me, but who wants good points all the time all the time?
i am no longer a lifeguard, and i never got paid for half my work, JEWS!!! lol jk =)
you know what else, work at 8 am sucks :P
well, i don't know what to say, or how to tell you all, but a friend of mine, Nick, was positively identified in mexico, he passed away, and was cremated.
no one knows why or how, we just know very little of what happened, and it has affected us all.
theres so many things to talk about it, but i've gone through it all in my mind.
happy birthday mike, sorry i couldn't be happier for you today and hang out.
i got a haircut, and me and david were watching lord of the rings when we got the call.
jabbar told us to pause the movie (something unheard of in this house). he had some bad news.
so julie came over and we comforted her, there was really nothing more we could say. its all so confusing.
i won't go into details, but julie was nicks girlfriend of 9 months, and he was very upset they had broke up.... and you might get the idea about now.
i miss my frind nick now, i never did call him like i promised. thats the worst feeling, not saying goodbye, but maybe it was worse who he said goodbye to, i wouldn't want to hear.
anyway, was is selfish to take his own life? did he take his own life? will we ever know?
God eh?
God watch over him, i hope he is in that better place, of course, and we'll always remember him.
Why? God eh? God damn it.
We all loved you nick, it wasn't your time. These short sentences don't even come close to summing it up, but we'll have plenty of time to talk someday. Save a spot for us up there, right next to chevy chase.
no one knows why or how, we just know very little of what happened, and it has affected us all.
theres so many things to talk about it, but i've gone through it all in my mind.
happy birthday mike, sorry i couldn't be happier for you today and hang out.
i got a haircut, and me and david were watching lord of the rings when we got the call.
jabbar told us to pause the movie (something unheard of in this house). he had some bad news.
so julie came over and we comforted her, there was really nothing more we could say. its all so confusing.
i won't go into details, but julie was nicks girlfriend of 9 months, and he was very upset they had broke up.... and you might get the idea about now.
i miss my frind nick now, i never did call him like i promised. thats the worst feeling, not saying goodbye, but maybe it was worse who he said goodbye to, i wouldn't want to hear.
anyway, was is selfish to take his own life? did he take his own life? will we ever know?
God eh?
God watch over him, i hope he is in that better place, of course, and we'll always remember him.
Why? God eh? God damn it.
We all loved you nick, it wasn't your time. These short sentences don't even come close to summing it up, but we'll have plenty of time to talk someday. Save a spot for us up there, right next to chevy chase.
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
ok, so whats with going out and me picking up these random playing cards....?????
last night it was 2 of diamonds, with laura it was a joker and the 10 of diamonds.
anyway, my physics teacher is a riot, he's english, it must be a rule all english people are funny, he even makes fun of england, how cool is that??
yeah and my AAS210 tacher is so cool too, teachers like that make me not want to leave school
and GUESS who i should see walking into AAS 100 today? motherfucking mike and mellissa! from muther fucking aikido!!!
awesome\!|1!
haha, life is so random, and so am i
monkey poop sex. see?
last night it was 2 of diamonds, with laura it was a joker and the 10 of diamonds.
anyway, my physics teacher is a riot, he's english, it must be a rule all english people are funny, he even makes fun of england, how cool is that??
yeah and my AAS210 tacher is so cool too, teachers like that make me not want to leave school
and GUESS who i should see walking into AAS 100 today? motherfucking mike and mellissa! from muther fucking aikido!!!
awesome\!|1!
haha, life is so random, and so am i
monkey poop sex. see?
Monday, August 25, 2003
Sunday, August 24, 2003
i liked talking around the coffee table with everyone tonight, after american wedding, much better than video games or sitting on my ass.
good bye to a good friend i barely got to know, she goes off to college, bye gretchen, i'll keep an eye on jeff, and i've always believed in you guys working it out.
i would take that bus to texas, just like i know jeff would take that bus up north
i got to talk to my baby today, and i forgot to say i missed her, so i called her back and had to say in front of my froomate 5 times that i missed her because the line was bad, so embarrassing for a guy, but i did it.
if theres one song right now that affects me it is_____
i soemtimes don't know what to do, she likes smashing punkins, which is kinda like liking nirvana, they don't really exist anymore, so wierd. but i know we just click like buttah.
its kind of like i totally trust her, in spite of what i know about her, and i totally don't mind if she's with other guys, so i don't get jealous really. i guess thats what i learned from grace, not to be too overbearing.
pardon me, this corona and in-n-out has gone to my head
its wierd now that i think about it again. for laura i turned down a sure thing and a pleasant life with Vicky to be with her. I turned down a practical millianaire model minako to be with her. I turned down a perfectly nice, warm, and smart jenny to be with her. Yet i wonder if she knows, whether she really really knows, how much i'm trusting in my feelings for her.
i just sit here with my sex and the city episodes and my thoughts and wonder about her, and how much i miss her, and yeah.... stuff like that... why did i fall for her... why............................... must be a reason.............
i'm just totally attracted to her.
i have router foot. its when you stupidly step on a router and split your toe wide open and have to wear a bandage on your foot.
comments about the movie i saw tonight? i don't do stupid meaningless shit like that, go watch it for yourself, it was funny, what do you want? i'm not a movie critic. hahaha jk. =))))))
so many things i don't about this girl.... but finding out is half the fun.
who needs to find out anyway, its so good right now. its like a relationship, but like a solar powerred calculator at the same time. i dont really know what i mean by that.
i'm a big cheeseball, like that Skipper guy on sex and the city, but combined with that 20 something punk guy with the tongue piercing. tongue piercing not included, sold seperately.
sunday means today, and that means free guitar lessons for 2 special friends. =)
better get some sleep with the booger =)
good bye to a good friend i barely got to know, she goes off to college, bye gretchen, i'll keep an eye on jeff, and i've always believed in you guys working it out.
i would take that bus to texas, just like i know jeff would take that bus up north
i got to talk to my baby today, and i forgot to say i missed her, so i called her back and had to say in front of my froomate 5 times that i missed her because the line was bad, so embarrassing for a guy, but i did it.
if theres one song right now that affects me it is_____
i soemtimes don't know what to do, she likes smashing punkins, which is kinda like liking nirvana, they don't really exist anymore, so wierd. but i know we just click like buttah.
its kind of like i totally trust her, in spite of what i know about her, and i totally don't mind if she's with other guys, so i don't get jealous really. i guess thats what i learned from grace, not to be too overbearing.
pardon me, this corona and in-n-out has gone to my head
its wierd now that i think about it again. for laura i turned down a sure thing and a pleasant life with Vicky to be with her. I turned down a practical millianaire model minako to be with her. I turned down a perfectly nice, warm, and smart jenny to be with her. Yet i wonder if she knows, whether she really really knows, how much i'm trusting in my feelings for her.
i just sit here with my sex and the city episodes and my thoughts and wonder about her, and how much i miss her, and yeah.... stuff like that... why did i fall for her... why............................... must be a reason.............
i'm just totally attracted to her.
i have router foot. its when you stupidly step on a router and split your toe wide open and have to wear a bandage on your foot.
comments about the movie i saw tonight? i don't do stupid meaningless shit like that, go watch it for yourself, it was funny, what do you want? i'm not a movie critic. hahaha jk. =))))))
so many things i don't about this girl.... but finding out is half the fun.
who needs to find out anyway, its so good right now. its like a relationship, but like a solar powerred calculator at the same time. i dont really know what i mean by that.
i'm a big cheeseball, like that Skipper guy on sex and the city, but combined with that 20 something punk guy with the tongue piercing. tongue piercing not included, sold seperately.
sunday means today, and that means free guitar lessons for 2 special friends. =)
better get some sleep with the booger =)
Saturday, August 23, 2003
ok, tiem for a list of random things i remember:
1. nordstrom olive green shirts (omg stop the pain!)
2. my friends at the show.
3. the look of myself of pictures of the show (uhhh, spew?)
4. daves dead. daves asleep.
5. why do i say (name)'s gayyap? its not that funny to me.
6. n00b, b00b, and teh periests
7. laura talking to me about how she hates counterstrike, and me not really fully convincing her that i don't even have it installed on my computer (true, i hate that game now)
8. emails from bonnie, letters from japan, and ucla
9. =) smileys are greater than :) smileys now
10. FUCKING RUBICKS CUBE!!!!!!
11. (damn no nice ten list here) 50 dollars worht of groceries for the month, and 20 dollars of cleaning products, 80 dollars in parking bills, 50 in bills, 32.07 for one claim jumper meal
12. ah i wish i could tell you everything, my little pleasures in life (decaf chai tea from ralphs), my little mistakes (decaf chai tea from ralphs), peanut butter cookies vs spice cinnimon cookies, i hate dishes. but it would take forever to explain.
13. fuck this list
you can't go through life with lists, or lisps for that matter.... i wish i made sense to you.
i can always make cents tho.
hip hip, cheerio, or wheaties.
1. nordstrom olive green shirts (omg stop the pain!)
2. my friends at the show.
3. the look of myself of pictures of the show (uhhh, spew?)
4. daves dead. daves asleep.
5. why do i say (name)'s gayyap? its not that funny to me.
6. n00b, b00b, and teh periests
7. laura talking to me about how she hates counterstrike, and me not really fully convincing her that i don't even have it installed on my computer (true, i hate that game now)
8. emails from bonnie, letters from japan, and ucla
9. =) smileys are greater than :) smileys now
10. FUCKING RUBICKS CUBE!!!!!!
11. (damn no nice ten list here) 50 dollars worht of groceries for the month, and 20 dollars of cleaning products, 80 dollars in parking bills, 50 in bills, 32.07 for one claim jumper meal
12. ah i wish i could tell you everything, my little pleasures in life (decaf chai tea from ralphs), my little mistakes (decaf chai tea from ralphs), peanut butter cookies vs spice cinnimon cookies, i hate dishes. but it would take forever to explain.
13. fuck this list
you can't go through life with lists, or lisps for that matter.... i wish i made sense to you.
i can always make cents tho.
hip hip, cheerio, or wheaties.
claim jumpers, a half eaten blueberry-lemon muffin, and noodles saved my ass today.
like that weezre song "whyyyy are youuuu, so far awayyyy from meeee?"
mike gave me a ton of songs via mac laptop, awesome, i can start the mp3 collection again
i had to delete some (not all) of my pr0n to make way for all the music, dastardly.
i kinda give a thought towards jenny, will she ever find her one?
and i give a thought towards the other jenny of old, i wonder if she's gotten over her break up yet, i never see her online.
and i give a thought towards amanda.... why does she forward me emails?
and to audrey, i wonder.
Aey is back (aka vicky), and i have no want to talk to her anymore.
to kristina, again, the thought makes me laugh sometimes.
and the rest of my thoughts go towards laura, how i wonder what she's really like.
can a whirlwind relationship really last? i wonder if she'd want it to.
but i guess i'll be there for her, thats the least i do for every girl, loyal till i bite my last balogna sandwich.
my classes look like 2 asian american studies courses, general physics 100, and advanced computer network routing.
ewwwwwwwwwwwww. spewwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
i didn't want to take the upper division biology yet. need to get gpa ^.
its amazing how some people view you, and how other don't.
everybody says i'm this great guy, yet..... i can't help but catch myself do and say the worst things.
the first time i caught myself saying something bad, when laura was around, i said i wasn't a whore because i didn't do stuff with girls who weren't my girlfriend. thats slighty exagerrated, slightly untrue, and it was slightly misinterpretted.
she interpretted it as calling all people who do that whores, and i saw the great tinge of resentment rise, and for the first time she turned away from me, maybe in playful spite, but away nonetheless.
its stupid shit like that that gets me in trouble.
well, i'm ranked in the top 1000 players in the west coast on warcraft 3, this is me happy.
actually i feel pretty crappy.
but i taught jong how to do a little guitar, maybe we can get something to happen, he's a fast learner.
i consider myself a fast learner. sometimes this is bad. you learn the wrong way to do things to fast, and its hard to unlearn things. like jeffs comment about the bike.
people think i don't notice things, but i do. i'm always listening. i just have add. as my rubicks cube proves, and my room theory (i'll tell you sometimes)
i rarely look people in the eye when they talk for a long time. this is due i think to my moms lectures.
like loveline, everything happens now because of something in childhood?
eesh. i'm glad nothing happened to me, like other thai families.....
i wonder how many people out of ten can pick out thailand on a map, or for that matter, say my last name correctly
i hate my last name. i hate my dad. i hate waiting till saturday for him to fix my car that he didnt put the brakes on right in the first place probably.my opinion of him again detrimented, he needs help with the job in the form of johns dad.
sorry if i'm speaking in semicircles, sleep slides in surpassively.
oh yeah. did i mention i hate online quizzes?
eesh, one hellava (heckuva?) blog today. hope you enjoyed.
like that weezre song "whyyyy are youuuu, so far awayyyy from meeee?"
mike gave me a ton of songs via mac laptop, awesome, i can start the mp3 collection again
i had to delete some (not all) of my pr0n to make way for all the music, dastardly.
i kinda give a thought towards jenny, will she ever find her one?
and i give a thought towards the other jenny of old, i wonder if she's gotten over her break up yet, i never see her online.
and i give a thought towards amanda.... why does she forward me emails?
and to audrey, i wonder.
Aey is back (aka vicky), and i have no want to talk to her anymore.
to kristina, again, the thought makes me laugh sometimes.
and the rest of my thoughts go towards laura, how i wonder what she's really like.
can a whirlwind relationship really last? i wonder if she'd want it to.
but i guess i'll be there for her, thats the least i do for every girl, loyal till i bite my last balogna sandwich.
my classes look like 2 asian american studies courses, general physics 100, and advanced computer network routing.
ewwwwwwwwwwwww. spewwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
i didn't want to take the upper division biology yet. need to get gpa ^.
its amazing how some people view you, and how other don't.
everybody says i'm this great guy, yet..... i can't help but catch myself do and say the worst things.
the first time i caught myself saying something bad, when laura was around, i said i wasn't a whore because i didn't do stuff with girls who weren't my girlfriend. thats slighty exagerrated, slightly untrue, and it was slightly misinterpretted.
she interpretted it as calling all people who do that whores, and i saw the great tinge of resentment rise, and for the first time she turned away from me, maybe in playful spite, but away nonetheless.
its stupid shit like that that gets me in trouble.
well, i'm ranked in the top 1000 players in the west coast on warcraft 3, this is me happy.
actually i feel pretty crappy.
but i taught jong how to do a little guitar, maybe we can get something to happen, he's a fast learner.
i consider myself a fast learner. sometimes this is bad. you learn the wrong way to do things to fast, and its hard to unlearn things. like jeffs comment about the bike.
people think i don't notice things, but i do. i'm always listening. i just have add. as my rubicks cube proves, and my room theory (i'll tell you sometimes)
i rarely look people in the eye when they talk for a long time. this is due i think to my moms lectures.
like loveline, everything happens now because of something in childhood?
eesh. i'm glad nothing happened to me, like other thai families.....
i wonder how many people out of ten can pick out thailand on a map, or for that matter, say my last name correctly
i hate my last name. i hate my dad. i hate waiting till saturday for him to fix my car that he didnt put the brakes on right in the first place probably.my opinion of him again detrimented, he needs help with the job in the form of johns dad.
sorry if i'm speaking in semicircles, sleep slides in surpassively.
oh yeah. did i mention i hate online quizzes?
eesh, one hellava (heckuva?) blog today. hope you enjoyed.
Friday, August 22, 2003
yeah, like that john melloncamp song "oh yeah, life goes on, long after the thrill of living is gone."
a little ditty....
man, i forgot to bring my wallet, now i'm at work starving, like marvin.
heh, RUBIKS CUBE IS SO FRIGGIN HARD!!! no pun people, please.....
haha, i remember when, before laura left, we went to her mall in arcadia, and she tried to buy me Express for Men clothes.. haha...... gosh that was funny..... as if...... lol ;P
i appreciated the thought, but i absolutely dred those clothes. can not wear anything with a collar for very long. uncomfortable. itchy.
i think all my problems with me now come from when i was a kid, thats the working theory. you see, as a kid, my mom made me wear collars to hillcrest christian school, well i guess the school really made me then, and i grew up hating them. i got used to them, but i hated them.
she was so nice to me, she bought me 60 dollar quicksilver khakis not even on sale and paid for johnny rockets.
and laura found out what my worst most hated ever color is....... olive fucking green
yes, olive fucking green
a little ditty....
man, i forgot to bring my wallet, now i'm at work starving, like marvin.
heh, RUBIKS CUBE IS SO FRIGGIN HARD!!! no pun people, please.....
haha, i remember when, before laura left, we went to her mall in arcadia, and she tried to buy me Express for Men clothes.. haha...... gosh that was funny..... as if...... lol ;P
i appreciated the thought, but i absolutely dred those clothes. can not wear anything with a collar for very long. uncomfortable. itchy.
i think all my problems with me now come from when i was a kid, thats the working theory. you see, as a kid, my mom made me wear collars to hillcrest christian school, well i guess the school really made me then, and i grew up hating them. i got used to them, but i hated them.
she was so nice to me, she bought me 60 dollar quicksilver khakis not even on sale and paid for johnny rockets.
and laura found out what my worst most hated ever color is....... olive fucking green
yes, olive fucking green
Thursday, August 21, 2003
ah ok, so here we go, can't put it off for any longer, must blog.
For one, thanks to everyone who came to the show. It meant more to me than words.
I really didn't feel it, I didn't want anyone to come, but they came, and that little bit says everything.
I didn't really stay for the middle bands, i left with the group to dennys, and came back to the cobalt with jong to watch the last 2 bands, the last of which just did covers and invovled mike from my band.
and grace came, and just like that, on the fly, i removed most of the lyrics from "broken promises", and said "fuck you" in the middle of it, it was to her, but those are my feelings from the past. and its a song of the past.
everybody asked me why mike was in the band, and they told me we should get rid of him. and the only thing i could think of is that he's the glue.
well theres no more rudy, our bassist. i guess he didn't have the heart to say bye to me, but he told mike he was gone, who told me.
that was the show. but there was so much before the show. like why i woke up at 2:30 pm the day of the show....
it turns out me and laura spent the night, and morning, at michilinda park, and we had the air conditioning of the rental car on so long it wore out the batteries, and we had an adventure trying to get jumper cables and a jump start at 4:00 am. she even called this guy ken, an old fling, and he was about to come, but an old mexican lady in a minivan helped us out before he came so it saved us, it saved the day. I will never knock minivans ever again. there were also no words to the simple thanks i gave her, i couldnt say anything more, but i hope she becomes a millionare someday.
we called the cops, and they wouldn't come to jump us, pigs, but they were nice enough to give me the numbers of 2 tow truck companies that had no drivers at the time. i got home at about 5 am with many drowsy moments.
i woke up with 8 missed calls and late to rehearsal the day of the show.
turns out i spent a lot of time with laura. and i never came home at night to sleep with dave, haha (ugh, no more roomate jokes plz people.)
and now she's gone, in texas. probably gonna go clubbing and have tons-o-fun with her old buddies. i'm happy for her, and can't wait till she gets back.
i have sex and the city episodes to watch and keep me company till she comes back. i must admit, its pretty good so far.
albiet questioning my manhood
she's right, i am a hopeless romantic, and she's right, i let girls walk all over me. but hey... thats me.
the other side is i dont take shit from any guy alive, and i can be an ass sometimes too, ass = unromantic.
speaking of asses....
haha - directors cut -
For one, thanks to everyone who came to the show. It meant more to me than words.
I really didn't feel it, I didn't want anyone to come, but they came, and that little bit says everything.
I didn't really stay for the middle bands, i left with the group to dennys, and came back to the cobalt with jong to watch the last 2 bands, the last of which just did covers and invovled mike from my band.
and grace came, and just like that, on the fly, i removed most of the lyrics from "broken promises", and said "fuck you" in the middle of it, it was to her, but those are my feelings from the past. and its a song of the past.
everybody asked me why mike was in the band, and they told me we should get rid of him. and the only thing i could think of is that he's the glue.
well theres no more rudy, our bassist. i guess he didn't have the heart to say bye to me, but he told mike he was gone, who told me.
that was the show. but there was so much before the show. like why i woke up at 2:30 pm the day of the show....
it turns out me and laura spent the night, and morning, at michilinda park, and we had the air conditioning of the rental car on so long it wore out the batteries, and we had an adventure trying to get jumper cables and a jump start at 4:00 am. she even called this guy ken, an old fling, and he was about to come, but an old mexican lady in a minivan helped us out before he came so it saved us, it saved the day. I will never knock minivans ever again. there were also no words to the simple thanks i gave her, i couldnt say anything more, but i hope she becomes a millionare someday.
we called the cops, and they wouldn't come to jump us, pigs, but they were nice enough to give me the numbers of 2 tow truck companies that had no drivers at the time. i got home at about 5 am with many drowsy moments.
i woke up with 8 missed calls and late to rehearsal the day of the show.
turns out i spent a lot of time with laura. and i never came home at night to sleep with dave, haha (ugh, no more roomate jokes plz people.)
and now she's gone, in texas. probably gonna go clubbing and have tons-o-fun with her old buddies. i'm happy for her, and can't wait till she gets back.
i have sex and the city episodes to watch and keep me company till she comes back. i must admit, its pretty good so far.
albiet questioning my manhood
she's right, i am a hopeless romantic, and she's right, i let girls walk all over me. but hey... thats me.
the other side is i dont take shit from any guy alive, and i can be an ass sometimes too, ass = unromantic.
speaking of asses....
haha - directors cut -
Monday, August 18, 2003
2 days, 2 dates, a margarita, a move, a full order of potatoskins, and an order of quesiddillas at TGIF's, and many bottles of water later.....
i'm completely broke.
i had 44 dollars left int eh bank, i spent it on jacks gift, gas to get to costa mesa, and food at the yardhouse,
it was awesome, i got to act like a freak again.
next time you see me ask me how to do the SMURF.
later, laura called her friend to meet us at fashion island, and i fake stole her purse, and the seurity stopped me, asked me how old i was, and when i said i was 21, he let me go. i guess crime does pay.
but what i really wanted to do was fall in the water fountain. haha jk,
but what i really wanted to do was play on the shut off carosel with her
but really happened was we went to Newport Beach, with said guy friend, and we saw the bonfires and the ocean at night, it was spectacular
i have to take her there alone sometime.
lol, i wasn't threated by the guy or jealous at all, i just wondered why she called to meet him in the first place, and i hope i never have to do that awkwardness again. annoying.
SMURFDANCE!!!!!!
i had 35 cents left in the bank and i overdrafted to spend money on mikes birthday.
and my car is completely broke, i can't go anywhere, even to see my baby =(
no worries, i pick up my 400 dollar work check from csun today, and my dad's coming at 6 pm to fix the car. so its like a minor inconveinence all the problems i have now.
life flexes sometimes, but its cool when you show it who's boss and fix it.
too bad francis wasn't there at mikes party, he's banned, and we we're banned from his party so i guess its even
i believe also that he's holding petty shit against people.
people say i'm whipped for giving up warcraft for this girl, haha, but i say i'm just being smart, once again, boobs in the face beats monitor in the face, believe me, i've tried, the monitor gives too many static shocks.
but yeah, i wish i could type up some more about how it is with laura, how wonderful, that is. but that would take up a lifetime. maybe i'll type a few snippets later.
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****please do not read this part, it is all inside jokes
things to remember are: M GOY it up! Thai food is just Chinese wanna be. frogs legs hot sauce, and vinegar is NOT fish sauce.
the muffdive alchoholic beverage
the newport
the fashion island ( toni and guys hair salon, fountains galore, and humping a natural beauty stall)
another white guy who listens to rap (ho-hum (._.) zzzzzzzzz)
and sand on the beach is NOT wet because of sperm.
arcadia at 100 degrees celsius
strawberry boba? without boba?? (i say she has wierd taste in boba)
i scored a red sprint ball for free. hours of mindless entertainment for our ADD kid aka me.
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gosh, the show is coming soon.
laura is leaving weds.
school starts next week.
ugh.
don't even get me started on mikes birthday party, that requires another entry!! haha! fun... (^_^)
oh yeah remind me to explain cali slang - ie. flex, weak sauce
i'm completely broke.
i had 44 dollars left int eh bank, i spent it on jacks gift, gas to get to costa mesa, and food at the yardhouse,
it was awesome, i got to act like a freak again.
next time you see me ask me how to do the SMURF.
later, laura called her friend to meet us at fashion island, and i fake stole her purse, and the seurity stopped me, asked me how old i was, and when i said i was 21, he let me go. i guess crime does pay.
but what i really wanted to do was fall in the water fountain. haha jk,
but what i really wanted to do was play on the shut off carosel with her
but really happened was we went to Newport Beach, with said guy friend, and we saw the bonfires and the ocean at night, it was spectacular
i have to take her there alone sometime.
lol, i wasn't threated by the guy or jealous at all, i just wondered why she called to meet him in the first place, and i hope i never have to do that awkwardness again. annoying.
SMURFDANCE!!!!!!
i had 35 cents left in the bank and i overdrafted to spend money on mikes birthday.
and my car is completely broke, i can't go anywhere, even to see my baby =(
no worries, i pick up my 400 dollar work check from csun today, and my dad's coming at 6 pm to fix the car. so its like a minor inconveinence all the problems i have now.
life flexes sometimes, but its cool when you show it who's boss and fix it.
too bad francis wasn't there at mikes party, he's banned, and we we're banned from his party so i guess its even
i believe also that he's holding petty shit against people.
people say i'm whipped for giving up warcraft for this girl, haha, but i say i'm just being smart, once again, boobs in the face beats monitor in the face, believe me, i've tried, the monitor gives too many static shocks.
but yeah, i wish i could type up some more about how it is with laura, how wonderful, that is. but that would take up a lifetime. maybe i'll type a few snippets later.
___________________________________________________________-
****please do not read this part, it is all inside jokes
things to remember are: M GOY it up! Thai food is just Chinese wanna be. frogs legs hot sauce, and vinegar is NOT fish sauce.
the muffdive alchoholic beverage
the newport
the fashion island ( toni and guys hair salon, fountains galore, and humping a natural beauty stall)
another white guy who listens to rap (ho-hum (._.) zzzzzzzzz)
and sand on the beach is NOT wet because of sperm.
arcadia at 100 degrees celsius
strawberry boba? without boba?? (i say she has wierd taste in boba)
i scored a red sprint ball for free. hours of mindless entertainment for our ADD kid aka me.
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gosh, the show is coming soon.
laura is leaving weds.
school starts next week.
ugh.
don't even get me started on mikes birthday party, that requires another entry!! haha! fun... (^_^)
oh yeah remind me to explain cali slang - ie. flex, weak sauce
Saturday, August 16, 2003
3 bottles of guiness and 5 hours later.....
i awake from my slumber to realize how stupid i've been, to wait for a call that was never promised in the first place. haha, i laugh about it now. man, sometimes i can act just like worried grandma or something!
i guess i have to call her again today, to set up picking her up and taking her to costa mesa. i'll go buy jack a present first, and hopefully take a shower before even that, then i'll call.
i really hate calling.
i mean, its not her only, its everyone.
heres a little rhyme before i go off on adventures:
Another place - another train
Another bottle in the brain
Another girl - another fight
Another drive all night
i awake from my slumber to realize how stupid i've been, to wait for a call that was never promised in the first place. haha, i laugh about it now. man, sometimes i can act just like worried grandma or something!
i guess i have to call her again today, to set up picking her up and taking her to costa mesa. i'll go buy jack a present first, and hopefully take a shower before even that, then i'll call.
i really hate calling.
i mean, its not her only, its everyone.
heres a little rhyme before i go off on adventures:
Another place - another train
Another bottle in the brain
Another girl - another fight
Another drive all night
well lets see, i have to try and get my mind off laura, as hard as that sounds, and i'm really sorry i i offended her or mike or jenn or anyone else.
when i went to the mall today i finally took out the cd that had sinatra and elvis and richard cheese on it, and put in my beastie boys cd. it was great, pumpin it up with david and jong in the hatch off my car (everyone eventually ends up in the hatch of my car, its tradition).
i have an obsession with cones, i steal cones, orange constuction ones i mean, not like ice cream cones
also some things i obsess about currently:
1. laura
2. ramen (always)
3. diddy reese
4. green tea
5. black wristbands from hot topic
today at the mall some things i noticed:
1. the spirited away art book was gone in borders
2. there's more couples nowadays, and theres more of me alone
3. my hair is emo?
4. they sell saves the day shirts and get up kids shirts at hot topic
5. i spent half an hour reading dragon ball comics in borders that i read before.
6. i spent an hour trying to pick out which cantonese book was the right one, the one i could learmn the most from.
7. i parked far from where i ended up
8. i called my mom for the first time in years, to tell her i think i've fallen for someone
laura also ends all her letters with "always", something i do.
i've got to stop thinking about her. but its hard, its so hard. NO FREAKING PUN PEOPLE\!
when i went to the mall today i finally took out the cd that had sinatra and elvis and richard cheese on it, and put in my beastie boys cd. it was great, pumpin it up with david and jong in the hatch off my car (everyone eventually ends up in the hatch of my car, its tradition).
i have an obsession with cones, i steal cones, orange constuction ones i mean, not like ice cream cones
also some things i obsess about currently:
1. laura
2. ramen (always)
3. diddy reese
4. green tea
5. black wristbands from hot topic
today at the mall some things i noticed:
1. the spirited away art book was gone in borders
2. there's more couples nowadays, and theres more of me alone
3. my hair is emo?
4. they sell saves the day shirts and get up kids shirts at hot topic
5. i spent half an hour reading dragon ball comics in borders that i read before.
6. i spent an hour trying to pick out which cantonese book was the right one, the one i could learmn the most from.
7. i parked far from where i ended up
8. i called my mom for the first time in years, to tell her i think i've fallen for someone
laura also ends all her letters with "always", something i do.
i've got to stop thinking about her. but its hard, its so hard. NO FREAKING PUN PEOPLE\!
The Laura Situation part II
she has the same first two intials as me, in fact.
she jokingly and sarcastically said that that makes us soul mates, that actually hurt me, the way she said it.
jabbar gently jokes whenever i say her name, that makes me angry too, like he won't let me forget that he has a girlfriend named laura too, and he had her first. i just want him to shut the fuck up about it.
man, this sucks.
today i waited all day for a call that never came
like chump, i waited for her to call after i talked to her online today at work.
she was probably with mikey, and she still hasn't told him about me.
like a chump, i called her at midnight. and she was asleep.
she said "i'll see you tonight, ok?" or something like that online. but since i called her last time at 1:30 and woke her up, i expected her to call me.
like a chump, i guess i waited for nothing.
so like a chump, i called her at midnight, expecting to at least be able to talk to her. she was dead tired, and all i got to hear her say was, "yes" "no" and "goodnight".
at least she wasn't still with him.
i have no right to be jealous but..... i can't help but think i wanted so bad to see her today, and now i can't, she's fast asleep.
maybe its better like this.
because, like a chump, i trusted my emotions again....
like a chump, i went to borders, i was going to surprise her by buying a "how to speak cantonese book" and learn it within a week, and today i got past the first chapter, i was going to surprise her with a few simple phrases i learned, but, as the minutes turned into hours, and it turned to midnight, i quickly learned i wasn't going to get a call from her, so i went to go play some midnight basketball, and i did horribly, she was the only thing on my mind and i shot like crap. 21 i lost, and around the world i didn't get past the 3rd shot.
maybe she did it today so she could have energy when i take her to jacks birthday tommorrow, i shouldnt think so bad.
but that doesnt explain why she went to dinner with the guy (speculating) to wish him good luck in vegas and not tell him about me, i mean, if i was that guy, and she hid this from me, i'd be pissed. but i'm not, i'm the guy who she tells everything to, and i guess i should be proud of that.
maybe we can talk it over some wine by the ocean tommorrow at costa mesa about this. this is my one special chance to talk seriously to her.
i think she likes timbo best, but just can't have him because his vows of celibacy, what a straight edge eh?
i feel like i'm her strange second choice sometimes, when i hear about all these wonderful guy friends of hers. but, i know i'm just as witty/funtobe with as them
i know going to the anime store wasn't fun for her, or changing my tire, or even buying oil for my car, but i'm trying to learn about her, and show her a bit of my world. but i'll make up for it by taking her real places special.
i was so mad i didn't want to call her for tommorrow. but i guess she's sleeping early partly for me now, and that makes me kind of smile.
god knows what kind of going away presents she's given mikey today, i don't want to know, but hopefully, maybe they can be the last. and i trust her, maybe nothing happened at all.
i knew what i 've been getting myself into, i know theres other guys besides me, and she says she doesn't care about any, except for mikey, and she's got to let him down slow. i'm just wondering when its going to be, and when she plans to let him know.
hopefully i'll find these things out tommorrow
today minako called, and she wanted to go out to see pirates of the carribean, and i resoundly said no in her face, it was like slapping her, i know, but i had to, i had to because i wanted to see laura today more. more than seeing minako.
i guess i could just date around, but i'm putting all my bets that laura really is the one for me right now
its sad i haven't won laura's heart completely yet, but i guess i'll just have to try harder, i won't give up.
she has the same first two intials as me, in fact.
she jokingly and sarcastically said that that makes us soul mates, that actually hurt me, the way she said it.
jabbar gently jokes whenever i say her name, that makes me angry too, like he won't let me forget that he has a girlfriend named laura too, and he had her first. i just want him to shut the fuck up about it.
man, this sucks.
today i waited all day for a call that never came
like chump, i waited for her to call after i talked to her online today at work.
she was probably with mikey, and she still hasn't told him about me.
like a chump, i called her at midnight. and she was asleep.
she said "i'll see you tonight, ok?" or something like that online. but since i called her last time at 1:30 and woke her up, i expected her to call me.
like a chump, i guess i waited for nothing.
so like a chump, i called her at midnight, expecting to at least be able to talk to her. she was dead tired, and all i got to hear her say was, "yes" "no" and "goodnight".
at least she wasn't still with him.
i have no right to be jealous but..... i can't help but think i wanted so bad to see her today, and now i can't, she's fast asleep.
maybe its better like this.
because, like a chump, i trusted my emotions again....
like a chump, i went to borders, i was going to surprise her by buying a "how to speak cantonese book" and learn it within a week, and today i got past the first chapter, i was going to surprise her with a few simple phrases i learned, but, as the minutes turned into hours, and it turned to midnight, i quickly learned i wasn't going to get a call from her, so i went to go play some midnight basketball, and i did horribly, she was the only thing on my mind and i shot like crap. 21 i lost, and around the world i didn't get past the 3rd shot.
maybe she did it today so she could have energy when i take her to jacks birthday tommorrow, i shouldnt think so bad.
but that doesnt explain why she went to dinner with the guy (speculating) to wish him good luck in vegas and not tell him about me, i mean, if i was that guy, and she hid this from me, i'd be pissed. but i'm not, i'm the guy who she tells everything to, and i guess i should be proud of that.
maybe we can talk it over some wine by the ocean tommorrow at costa mesa about this. this is my one special chance to talk seriously to her.
i think she likes timbo best, but just can't have him because his vows of celibacy, what a straight edge eh?
i feel like i'm her strange second choice sometimes, when i hear about all these wonderful guy friends of hers. but, i know i'm just as witty/funtobe with as them
i know going to the anime store wasn't fun for her, or changing my tire, or even buying oil for my car, but i'm trying to learn about her, and show her a bit of my world. but i'll make up for it by taking her real places special.
i was so mad i didn't want to call her for tommorrow. but i guess she's sleeping early partly for me now, and that makes me kind of smile.
god knows what kind of going away presents she's given mikey today, i don't want to know, but hopefully, maybe they can be the last. and i trust her, maybe nothing happened at all.
i knew what i 've been getting myself into, i know theres other guys besides me, and she says she doesn't care about any, except for mikey, and she's got to let him down slow. i'm just wondering when its going to be, and when she plans to let him know.
hopefully i'll find these things out tommorrow
today minako called, and she wanted to go out to see pirates of the carribean, and i resoundly said no in her face, it was like slapping her, i know, but i had to, i had to because i wanted to see laura today more. more than seeing minako.
i guess i could just date around, but i'm putting all my bets that laura really is the one for me right now
its sad i haven't won laura's heart completely yet, but i guess i'll just have to try harder, i won't give up.
Friday, August 15, 2003
The Laura situation:
ah heres what you've all been waiting for, an explanation. details, details, and more details. well maybe not that many details.
She's Chinese-Cantonese, never met one i've known in my life
She goes to UCLA and University of Texas, she's originally from texas, and says "ya'll" like a lil cute country music video =)
She has friends up the wazoo, and a few "special" friends too. I'm glad I'm a part of her life.
She likes juice and whole foods, and i think hawaiian burgers from king's, and mushroom pizza.
She likes the korean movie "My sassy girl", and hugging me when i try not to cry during it!
Her favorite color is pink.
i never knew her full name for the first 2 days i knew her, so i call her miss laura from texas and she calls me lukey luke luke.
she gave me a tatoo of a flower on my right shoulder, and gave me gangsta initials on my knuckles.
she likes hip hop but she likes trance, i gave her one of my cd's, and a necklace that didnt fit me.
she's as wierd as i am, but when we are both together we are just so normal. i guess it cancells out.
jeaze, i hate work sometimes, i should be with her right now!
*leaves
ah heres what you've all been waiting for, an explanation. details, details, and more details. well maybe not that many details.
She's Chinese-Cantonese, never met one i've known in my life
She goes to UCLA and University of Texas, she's originally from texas, and says "ya'll" like a lil cute country music video =)
She has friends up the wazoo, and a few "special" friends too. I'm glad I'm a part of her life.
She likes juice and whole foods, and i think hawaiian burgers from king's, and mushroom pizza.
She likes the korean movie "My sassy girl", and hugging me when i try not to cry during it!
Her favorite color is pink.
i never knew her full name for the first 2 days i knew her, so i call her miss laura from texas and she calls me lukey luke luke.
she gave me a tatoo of a flower on my right shoulder, and gave me gangsta initials on my knuckles.
she likes hip hop but she likes trance, i gave her one of my cd's, and a necklace that didnt fit me.
she's as wierd as i am, but when we are both together we are just so normal. i guess it cancells out.
jeaze, i hate work sometimes, i should be with her right now!
*leaves
The Francis situation:
this guy hates my guts and has never had the balls to tell me in person.
wants to sock me in my sleep. wants to be friends again with mike but doesn't realize its too late.
i used to carpool with this guy to pierce, 6 am i used to wait for him to pick me up, and even though he almost always was running late, i was still his friend.
i went clubbing with him, met his family, he even drove me back to my house when i got off the plane and was lugging my luggage from the taxi.
i think its because of that one blog i did where i said i had more fun at yoshinoya afterwards than at his club.
and he still holds it against me that i said something jokingly about his mom 40 years ago. i said sorry, what more can i do, i met her in person a few times and showed her nothing but respect.
get over it man. if thats all you have holding against me, you're a little drama starved. and if theres more, how would i know, you've never told me.
if you just don't like me, fine.
if you ever want to talk this over, just give me a call, and we can still be cool again.
but if you want to just fight me....
just name the place, we can settle this. but you're friends can't help you there, and i hope you still remember your aikido, if you're going to fight me, you're going to need it. i hope i don't mess up, go too far, and accidently kill you with my bare hands.
this guy hates my guts and has never had the balls to tell me in person.
wants to sock me in my sleep. wants to be friends again with mike but doesn't realize its too late.
i used to carpool with this guy to pierce, 6 am i used to wait for him to pick me up, and even though he almost always was running late, i was still his friend.
i went clubbing with him, met his family, he even drove me back to my house when i got off the plane and was lugging my luggage from the taxi.
i think its because of that one blog i did where i said i had more fun at yoshinoya afterwards than at his club.
and he still holds it against me that i said something jokingly about his mom 40 years ago. i said sorry, what more can i do, i met her in person a few times and showed her nothing but respect.
get over it man. if thats all you have holding against me, you're a little drama starved. and if theres more, how would i know, you've never told me.
if you just don't like me, fine.
if you ever want to talk this over, just give me a call, and we can still be cool again.
but if you want to just fight me....
just name the place, we can settle this. but you're friends can't help you there, and i hope you still remember your aikido, if you're going to fight me, you're going to need it. i hope i don't mess up, go too far, and accidently kill you with my bare hands.
The Band situation:
i'm losing time for this...sigh...
you just stop by to get your hat and end up buying the girl a dozen roses and spending the whole day. you are luke.
anyone who's anyone should know some things about my life now, and only a few people do, so sad, yet i'm so happy it doesn't matter.
i want to tell my friends everything, but they want to watch futurama and go bowling
mike knows, he understands
its all a matter of contact, and again, timing
you have to be a friend to make/have a friend
its easy to buy gifts for guys, but hard for girls?
you can pick your friends, you can pick your friends, but you can't pick your friend's fucking nose
cmon people, we can change that! haha jk.
friendster still blows, can never get on, i want to take off my blog, before laura reads it, but i was too late according to tday
remind me to tell you about laura
i'm kind of upset about the band, and feel sorry rudy has to spend like 20 bucks a day to practice with us and his blink 182 band.
i'm upset because we waste a lot of time, and i realized that big mike (not bigger mike) has changed the name, changed around my songs, and changed my opinion of him.
i think it would be more useful to sit around playing nothing and hear each others ideas than to sit around playing crap just to prove we can play crap. and we can't hear a word we say unless spoken through the microphone.
theres only one microphone. and i'm thinking of leaving it if our cd goes sour.
he suggeted once to make a michelle branch cover. thats fine. i found the chords and brought it to practice, he kept saying we shouldn't do it because its already been done. i show him it, and a few practices later he wants to sing it.
it was evident in the car garage today where practice wsa held (pretty cool) when i came hours and hours late, that i really was just following him now, he made the flyers (which i didn't like) for the show, and he's come up now with his own new lead song, with no lyrics and is really hard to follow. and we are going to play it first. i wouldn't be surprised if people left.
there can be two microphones, but i just don't agree every song has to have some pseudo-complex layer of guitar in it to be good.
think simple man. what have the white stripes taught us? they are millionares and their songs are nothing more than simple beats and simple lyrics and simple guitar parts. learn. i want to learn what makes hits, and not what makes generic songs.
what i really want? i want the emo band, pseudo-weezer, pseudo the clash, pseudo afi, pseudo get up kids/saves the day, pseudo the white stripes, that i dreamed about when i created those songs. i really don't need someone tailoring my songs to his taste. i really don't need to be in this anymore. but i'm in it already, and i will continue on, because we do actually sound really good.
i have a stack of songs we never even touched, but i guess its my fault i never introduced them.
i see a solo career in my future.
i see a college life ahead of me.
i'm losing time for this...sigh...
you just stop by to get your hat and end up buying the girl a dozen roses and spending the whole day. you are luke.
anyone who's anyone should know some things about my life now, and only a few people do, so sad, yet i'm so happy it doesn't matter.
i want to tell my friends everything, but they want to watch futurama and go bowling
mike knows, he understands
its all a matter of contact, and again, timing
you have to be a friend to make/have a friend
its easy to buy gifts for guys, but hard for girls?
you can pick your friends, you can pick your friends, but you can't pick your friend's fucking nose
cmon people, we can change that! haha jk.
friendster still blows, can never get on, i want to take off my blog, before laura reads it, but i was too late according to tday
remind me to tell you about laura
i'm kind of upset about the band, and feel sorry rudy has to spend like 20 bucks a day to practice with us and his blink 182 band.
i'm upset because we waste a lot of time, and i realized that big mike (not bigger mike) has changed the name, changed around my songs, and changed my opinion of him.
i think it would be more useful to sit around playing nothing and hear each others ideas than to sit around playing crap just to prove we can play crap. and we can't hear a word we say unless spoken through the microphone.
theres only one microphone. and i'm thinking of leaving it if our cd goes sour.
he suggeted once to make a michelle branch cover. thats fine. i found the chords and brought it to practice, he kept saying we shouldn't do it because its already been done. i show him it, and a few practices later he wants to sing it.
it was evident in the car garage today where practice wsa held (pretty cool) when i came hours and hours late, that i really was just following him now, he made the flyers (which i didn't like) for the show, and he's come up now with his own new lead song, with no lyrics and is really hard to follow. and we are going to play it first. i wouldn't be surprised if people left.
there can be two microphones, but i just don't agree every song has to have some pseudo-complex layer of guitar in it to be good.
think simple man. what have the white stripes taught us? they are millionares and their songs are nothing more than simple beats and simple lyrics and simple guitar parts. learn. i want to learn what makes hits, and not what makes generic songs.
what i really want? i want the emo band, pseudo-weezer, pseudo the clash, pseudo afi, pseudo get up kids/saves the day, pseudo the white stripes, that i dreamed about when i created those songs. i really don't need someone tailoring my songs to his taste. i really don't need to be in this anymore. but i'm in it already, and i will continue on, because we do actually sound really good.
i have a stack of songs we never even touched, but i guess its my fault i never introduced them.
i see a solo career in my future.
i see a college life ahead of me.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
dreaming in waking life gives hell and nightmares no meaning.
i thought about what i'd write when i wrote in this again, or if i'd even write in this again.
when you connect with a person, you get nothing but hate from the ones who don't know you
and you get nothing but love from the one you connect with
which is the better? hate from those who don't know you, or love from the one who does?
was it was the wrong thing to do? posting "secret thoughts" on here?
was it wrong to be honest?
was it wrong to get too attached, too soon?
we all tell someone our secret thoughts, i would be glad if someone shared them.
we are lucky if someone is truly honest in this world.
we all take chances, and sacrifice.
i knew what i was getting myself into, i knew i'd hurt Jenny, because even if it was only 2 dates, i knew they were special to her. and they were special to me too.
i just didn't make the call.
the call that i was supposed to make at 3am and tell her i was seeing a girl i never saw before, and i might end up falling for this girl that night.
the call that the next day, instead of making to Jenny, i blogged about the something that happened right before my eyes that was important to me, i guess it was more important to explain what had happened to me in my eyes, and take the punishment, than to call and awkwardly stiffle out excuses and stuff that wasn't honest.
because if i would have told jenny on the phone i just met someone who, in one day i felt i connected more with than weeks knowing her....
would she believe? wouldn't she feel worse? but it was pure chance i connected with her more, she shouldn't feel bad at all.
you get the idea.
she found out about it a day before? nay. hours before i met her at green tea terrace. its my fault i couldn't keep her from reading it before i told her in person, i guess.
no doubt i'm a jerk to her, no doubt i'm thoughtless to her, but i think thats where the insults should end. it was only 2 dates. it was only a month of knowing her. and we're still going to try and be friends, if she wants. you all should know what a good friend jenny is, and comfort her, and help her, rather than try to insult me
it might make her feel better telling her i was a jerk, but you know what, i already said it.
fucktard is pretty strong a word, pretty cool too, and if it makes her feel better, than i'm a fucktard.
bottom line is, we both lost time for what i realized and did that night.
she had just as much invested in that time as me. maybe more. and i'm sorry.
realize the friend Jenny is to you, and losing that friend i could have made was what i was gambling on, for the chance to love someone
does that give any indication how strongly i felt towards this girl?
i realize what i did, and this is my apology to Jennifer. I'm sorry. and sorry doesn't even cut it. so sorry, very sorry, extremely sorry.
words online don't do justice, but i hurt you from words online, things i did in person
i apologized to you in person already, and here's my online words of apology.
its online, and its secret thoughts, big whoop.
its words and feelings and bashing and hate. will it end please? can we end it? can we, as an online community put an end to online drama?
if you people read this, what more do you want?
talk to jenny in person to find out about me, or talk to me. don't just read my blog and hate.
will you all just please leave my name alone? please.
i thought about what i'd write when i wrote in this again, or if i'd even write in this again.
when you connect with a person, you get nothing but hate from the ones who don't know you
and you get nothing but love from the one you connect with
which is the better? hate from those who don't know you, or love from the one who does?
was it was the wrong thing to do? posting "secret thoughts" on here?
was it wrong to be honest?
was it wrong to get too attached, too soon?
we all tell someone our secret thoughts, i would be glad if someone shared them.
we are lucky if someone is truly honest in this world.
we all take chances, and sacrifice.
i knew what i was getting myself into, i knew i'd hurt Jenny, because even if it was only 2 dates, i knew they were special to her. and they were special to me too.
i just didn't make the call.
the call that i was supposed to make at 3am and tell her i was seeing a girl i never saw before, and i might end up falling for this girl that night.
the call that the next day, instead of making to Jenny, i blogged about the something that happened right before my eyes that was important to me, i guess it was more important to explain what had happened to me in my eyes, and take the punishment, than to call and awkwardly stiffle out excuses and stuff that wasn't honest.
because if i would have told jenny on the phone i just met someone who, in one day i felt i connected more with than weeks knowing her....
would she believe? wouldn't she feel worse? but it was pure chance i connected with her more, she shouldn't feel bad at all.
you get the idea.
she found out about it a day before? nay. hours before i met her at green tea terrace. its my fault i couldn't keep her from reading it before i told her in person, i guess.
no doubt i'm a jerk to her, no doubt i'm thoughtless to her, but i think thats where the insults should end. it was only 2 dates. it was only a month of knowing her. and we're still going to try and be friends, if she wants. you all should know what a good friend jenny is, and comfort her, and help her, rather than try to insult me
it might make her feel better telling her i was a jerk, but you know what, i already said it.
fucktard is pretty strong a word, pretty cool too, and if it makes her feel better, than i'm a fucktard.
bottom line is, we both lost time for what i realized and did that night.
she had just as much invested in that time as me. maybe more. and i'm sorry.
realize the friend Jenny is to you, and losing that friend i could have made was what i was gambling on, for the chance to love someone
does that give any indication how strongly i felt towards this girl?
i realize what i did, and this is my apology to Jennifer. I'm sorry. and sorry doesn't even cut it. so sorry, very sorry, extremely sorry.
words online don't do justice, but i hurt you from words online, things i did in person
i apologized to you in person already, and here's my online words of apology.
its online, and its secret thoughts, big whoop.
its words and feelings and bashing and hate. will it end please? can we end it? can we, as an online community put an end to online drama?
if you people read this, what more do you want?
talk to jenny in person to find out about me, or talk to me. don't just read my blog and hate.
will you all just please leave my name alone? please.
Sunday, August 10, 2003
i'm so confused.
what a week, and what a day, and what a night.
its a beautiful day, and it should be, i just met someone who i consider truly beautiful.
now that i said that, i can begin my tale..... get your ramen and your purple bean bags, people, its gonna be a long night. but an awesome one.
i got to spend it with one of the most unique, smart, wit-tastic, strange, most utterly and naturally attractive girl in a long time. i mean, i was totally taken off-guard, at 3 in the morning i had just come back from a long day of hanging out wit da guys, and she ims me, out of the blue, totally something i would do, so i said i was bored, and she said i should go see her sometime, and i said now? and she gave me directions.
this girl, how can i explain, she told me her life story, and i did the best to pay attention i could, and i understood most of it. i felt like grabbing her and shaking her and saying "WHY DID YOU DO THAT??". its her life, she's free to do with it what she wants, but, if only i could have got to her sooner, i could have saved her from such atrocities....
well, at least she had an adventure, thats commendable. but like all the other girls, she's still fixated on one of her first boyfriends, and theres nothing i can do to make her forget, besides a temporary affectional escape.
I listened to her talk, and speak, it was entertaining. she didn't talk too much, or too little, everything was just right.
theres just so much to say.
its like randomly meeting a person out of nowhere, and you become so attracted to them it hurts.
everything hurt, inside.
knowing i'd probably be nothing more than nothing.
knowing this one night that was so special to me, was probably just an end of a string of innuendo for her.
well maybe i can be glad if i was the one to end it.
the one to show her, hey, all guys aren't pussy grabbing assholes.
i tried to treat her with respect, the most i could, keeping in mind my attraction. see in my case, i didn't want to be like all the rest of the guys before, that week or that month or whatever.
she was special to me.
we walked, we danced, we shared music, ideas, and jokes. she offered me ramen!!! thats so hot. (explitive deleted). i really have to ask myself why. why am i with her tonight? why did i get this chance? or this morning.
we stayed up all night. i tried to have her fall asleep in my arms, but i fell asleep in hers. it was heartbreak. she hinted at me seeing her again, but i'll just carry on like i won't. i'll always remember that night.
i would give you details, all the things i look at but don't really care about in the end, but they don't really matter do they...
i'll never see her again.
out of all her prospects, what is the chance that i'm the one? the cutest one? the smartest one? or even the funniest one?
but you know what, i be the most loyal, kind, and honest one. i feel like deleting this entry, for the first time i've ever felt like deleting any entry. i'm so angry too.
no, i have to get it out of my head.
yet.................... i really want to take her to jack's party at the yardhouse. she's in a saying yes thing right now i guess, and it would be easy just to ask her now, but would it be right? my heart is so confused. she's went to church at 9am i think, and i left at 8:15am.
all nighter, with this girl, something to remember. as she walked away, and i yearned to say something but didn't.... it was such a bad ending to an almost perfect night, but in this world of imperfection, i guess that made it perfect. sometimes saying nothing is the key.
i mean, i didn't want to feel sorry for her, but i did. i felt like holding my fist up to the sky and proclaiming her as my own anime style... but.... luke tradition frowns upon it, and maybe it was too good to be true
can i really compete with 27 year old guys? HELL YEAH I CAN. AND I CAN KICK THERE MFIFNGNGNGNGN ASSES TOO!
self esteem problem? not me. well maybe sometimes.
things to remember:
pink
red!
booger
fart?
dkny
her laugh
her smile
fancy ramen
random acts of kindness
random acts of affection
driving 90 on a spare tire
not bringing a guitar and not singing, but promising to someday.
one last final thing before i ruin it, which i probably have already,
when i was driving her a block back to her apartment, she may not have had the slightest clue, but the get up kids were singing "Long Goodnight".
laura... *sigh i haven't done you justice with this blog entry by any means, and what more can i say? you're lovely.
what a week, and what a day, and what a night.
its a beautiful day, and it should be, i just met someone who i consider truly beautiful.
now that i said that, i can begin my tale..... get your ramen and your purple bean bags, people, its gonna be a long night. but an awesome one.
i got to spend it with one of the most unique, smart, wit-tastic, strange, most utterly and naturally attractive girl in a long time. i mean, i was totally taken off-guard, at 3 in the morning i had just come back from a long day of hanging out wit da guys, and she ims me, out of the blue, totally something i would do, so i said i was bored, and she said i should go see her sometime, and i said now? and she gave me directions.
this girl, how can i explain, she told me her life story, and i did the best to pay attention i could, and i understood most of it. i felt like grabbing her and shaking her and saying "WHY DID YOU DO THAT??". its her life, she's free to do with it what she wants, but, if only i could have got to her sooner, i could have saved her from such atrocities....
well, at least she had an adventure, thats commendable. but like all the other girls, she's still fixated on one of her first boyfriends, and theres nothing i can do to make her forget, besides a temporary affectional escape.
I listened to her talk, and speak, it was entertaining. she didn't talk too much, or too little, everything was just right.
theres just so much to say.
its like randomly meeting a person out of nowhere, and you become so attracted to them it hurts.
everything hurt, inside.
knowing i'd probably be nothing more than nothing.
knowing this one night that was so special to me, was probably just an end of a string of innuendo for her.
well maybe i can be glad if i was the one to end it.
the one to show her, hey, all guys aren't pussy grabbing assholes.
i tried to treat her with respect, the most i could, keeping in mind my attraction. see in my case, i didn't want to be like all the rest of the guys before, that week or that month or whatever.
she was special to me.
we walked, we danced, we shared music, ideas, and jokes. she offered me ramen!!! thats so hot. (explitive deleted). i really have to ask myself why. why am i with her tonight? why did i get this chance? or this morning.
we stayed up all night. i tried to have her fall asleep in my arms, but i fell asleep in hers. it was heartbreak. she hinted at me seeing her again, but i'll just carry on like i won't. i'll always remember that night.
i would give you details, all the things i look at but don't really care about in the end, but they don't really matter do they...
i'll never see her again.
out of all her prospects, what is the chance that i'm the one? the cutest one? the smartest one? or even the funniest one?
but you know what, i be the most loyal, kind, and honest one. i feel like deleting this entry, for the first time i've ever felt like deleting any entry. i'm so angry too.
no, i have to get it out of my head.
yet.................... i really want to take her to jack's party at the yardhouse. she's in a saying yes thing right now i guess, and it would be easy just to ask her now, but would it be right? my heart is so confused. she's went to church at 9am i think, and i left at 8:15am.
all nighter, with this girl, something to remember. as she walked away, and i yearned to say something but didn't.... it was such a bad ending to an almost perfect night, but in this world of imperfection, i guess that made it perfect. sometimes saying nothing is the key.
i mean, i didn't want to feel sorry for her, but i did. i felt like holding my fist up to the sky and proclaiming her as my own anime style... but.... luke tradition frowns upon it, and maybe it was too good to be true
can i really compete with 27 year old guys? HELL YEAH I CAN. AND I CAN KICK THERE MFIFNGNGNGNGN ASSES TOO!
self esteem problem? not me. well maybe sometimes.
things to remember:
pink
red!
booger
fart?
dkny
her laugh
her smile
fancy ramen
random acts of kindness
random acts of affection
driving 90 on a spare tire
not bringing a guitar and not singing, but promising to someday.
one last final thing before i ruin it, which i probably have already,
when i was driving her a block back to her apartment, she may not have had the slightest clue, but the get up kids were singing "Long Goodnight".
laura... *sigh i haven't done you justice with this blog entry by any means, and what more can i say? you're lovely.
Friday, August 08, 2003
Thursday, August 07, 2003
Music - Elvis - Heartbreak Hotel
FUCK!!!!!
so i stepped into class, thinking today was the review session tomorrow
big news as he plopped it on my cold green desk, thud.
the sound said it all, now i have nothing to say. jaw open wide, i look around speechless. sure enough, everyone has their scantrons out. Bastards, they must have voted for an early final so they can have friday off. BASTARDS!
after being silently stabbed in the back, i rush out to go buy a scantron with my credit card. and a pencil. and since the minimum was 3 dollars, i bought a bag of cookies as well. cookies heal heartbreak.
unfortunately cookies don't heal broken gpa's, i hope i didnt royally fuck up, i sealed at least a c in the class for my work there.
now excuse me while i put my head in a book for tommorrows final. let some music soak up my educational obturation.
lifeguard at 1.
headache at 10:20.
news at 11.
FUCK!!!!!
so i stepped into class, thinking today was the review session tomorrow
big news as he plopped it on my cold green desk, thud.
the sound said it all, now i have nothing to say. jaw open wide, i look around speechless. sure enough, everyone has their scantrons out. Bastards, they must have voted for an early final so they can have friday off. BASTARDS!
after being silently stabbed in the back, i rush out to go buy a scantron with my credit card. and a pencil. and since the minimum was 3 dollars, i bought a bag of cookies as well. cookies heal heartbreak.
unfortunately cookies don't heal broken gpa's, i hope i didnt royally fuck up, i sealed at least a c in the class for my work there.
now excuse me while i put my head in a book for tommorrows final. let some music soak up my educational obturation.
lifeguard at 1.
headache at 10:20.
news at 11.
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
ok i havent told anyone about this, but i guess i'll tell now, i missed the last 3 days of school because i havent woke up, now i'm scared i wont get my A and a B
i know i wont get the b, it will be a c now, i left my extra credit at home, after doing in the minute after i got it, just goes to serve me right for trying to do schoolwork for once, fuck dat, no more schoolwork for me
starting to listen to more sinatra and elvis, always liked them, now its gotten better, since i guess i'm getting odler
i can still rock tho, the band sounds great. we have one veryy typical pop song, the rest are very unique... almost too unique
it makes you wonder, how did a band like coldplay get so popular, i mean, they dont play a popular type of music, its like slow jazz rock, much props to them for sticking with their music in spite of almost certain adversity.
in other news, i'll go to bed early today, and finally get up on time, and spend some quality time at the library hopefully
lifeguarding job is dying
some chores i have to do, me, don't let me forget k?
pay off csun bill
get academic counseling
get hold removed
get fall classes
man i messed up, i waited too long, now i'm number 10 on the waiting list for chem at pierce
fark.
oh well i'm sure i've pleased you all with my complaing and nonsensical miss mash telling of my chores
but hey, it works for me, bugger off! :)
oh yeah, what did i promise to talk about?
i know i wont get the b, it will be a c now, i left my extra credit at home, after doing in the minute after i got it, just goes to serve me right for trying to do schoolwork for once, fuck dat, no more schoolwork for me
starting to listen to more sinatra and elvis, always liked them, now its gotten better, since i guess i'm getting odler
i can still rock tho, the band sounds great. we have one veryy typical pop song, the rest are very unique... almost too unique
it makes you wonder, how did a band like coldplay get so popular, i mean, they dont play a popular type of music, its like slow jazz rock, much props to them for sticking with their music in spite of almost certain adversity.
in other news, i'll go to bed early today, and finally get up on time, and spend some quality time at the library hopefully
lifeguarding job is dying
some chores i have to do, me, don't let me forget k?
pay off csun bill
get academic counseling
get hold removed
get fall classes
man i messed up, i waited too long, now i'm number 10 on the waiting list for chem at pierce
fark.
oh well i'm sure i've pleased you all with my complaing and nonsensical miss mash telling of my chores
but hey, it works for me, bugger off! :)
oh yeah, what did i promise to talk about?
Monday, August 04, 2003
haha, ok, todays title of blog should be: luke's merry male mishaps
actually, i was in the bank today, and i saw michelle branch, she was behind me in line, and i thought to myself, i don't deserve to be in front of her, but according to luke tradition, i already got shot down this year, so i have to wait till next year to randomly talk to a girl again, in person
ok she wasn't really michelle branch, and she was in her mid-twenties
its funny cuz i saw her walk out, and i knew she saw me walking in, she must have been done with her business, but yet....she still walked back in after i got there..... eh... quit thinking. don't flatter myself.
at citibank we'll meet, we'll start to talk when she borrows my pen...
-cake, short skirt, long jacket
yeah, i didn't even have a farking pen.
anyway, so then i went into the vons to buy a thing of contact lens solution
and this time a darker girl who was stocking tampons on the shelf happened to be in the same aisle where i had to get my contact lens solution....
upper twenties, hair tied back, short black hair, dark complexion, pacific islander, slightly overwieght but in a cute way
i tried to act like i didn't know where something was, to of no avail, she must have been off the market
girl at the express checkout counter, i should say woman....lower thirties (they are getting progessively older as i go from the bank line to the grocery checkout line?), she switched with a much younger white girl and i got to be first in line in the newly-created non-express checkout lane, with the older girl
also pacifc islander.....(they spawn in vons grocery stores worldwide?), curly hair this time, looked curl-ironed, she rang up my bausch and lomb, and said 5.08. i looked at the five in my hand, then looked at her, to of no avail
while i was scrambling to get another single dollar bill, she held her hand out and resembled a blonde fifties-era drive thru waitress on roller-skates waiting for my order, chewing pink bubble gum
i felt like such a dork on, i got the money, and without even looking at me, she handed me my reciept, and i waited a split second for her to hand me my change, then i looked to the right and heard the tell-tale clunky clunk of the automatic change machine.... didn't even get to make hand contact
so there you go, i skipped class at 11AM for nothing....
actually i was upset i lost my extra credit work i was going to turn in the last day today
there was only a movie today, and i was so frustrated i took it out on myself, forcing punishment on myself, to do chores.
i looked for 30 minutes through my bag for that yellow (shiny golden in my mind, by this time) sheet of paper, to of no avail.
victory and tampa, theres the mini-mall where my adventures and mishaps begin and end.
i talk to random girls online all the time, but i never expect it to go anywhere
much like that time at hollywood where we saw chevy chase
sorta like that time i was at KFC and i saw hulk hogan.....
yeah, just random pretty girls i see while i have my jumbo glasses on..... :(
i'm a sucker for long, black haired, sporatic girls who mistreat/ignore/abuse me
see also: Amanda
see also: curvy hips, and luscious lips
see also: henna tatooes
see also: independant
see also: innovative, illustrious, elusive, etc etc
clothes dont matter, the girl i want won't need them :)
the girl i want won't have all these things, well not all at the same time anyway.
too much talking, back to work and my two lunch jumbo jacks, which by the way cost 1.29 now instead of 99c
next blog i will talk about: the secret life of catch phrases, and how they are significant amongst friends
actually, i was in the bank today, and i saw michelle branch, she was behind me in line, and i thought to myself, i don't deserve to be in front of her, but according to luke tradition, i already got shot down this year, so i have to wait till next year to randomly talk to a girl again, in person
ok she wasn't really michelle branch, and she was in her mid-twenties
its funny cuz i saw her walk out, and i knew she saw me walking in, she must have been done with her business, but yet....she still walked back in after i got there..... eh... quit thinking. don't flatter myself.
at citibank we'll meet, we'll start to talk when she borrows my pen...
-cake, short skirt, long jacket
yeah, i didn't even have a farking pen.
anyway, so then i went into the vons to buy a thing of contact lens solution
and this time a darker girl who was stocking tampons on the shelf happened to be in the same aisle where i had to get my contact lens solution....
upper twenties, hair tied back, short black hair, dark complexion, pacific islander, slightly overwieght but in a cute way
i tried to act like i didn't know where something was, to of no avail, she must have been off the market
girl at the express checkout counter, i should say woman....lower thirties (they are getting progessively older as i go from the bank line to the grocery checkout line?), she switched with a much younger white girl and i got to be first in line in the newly-created non-express checkout lane, with the older girl
also pacifc islander.....(they spawn in vons grocery stores worldwide?), curly hair this time, looked curl-ironed, she rang up my bausch and lomb, and said 5.08. i looked at the five in my hand, then looked at her, to of no avail
while i was scrambling to get another single dollar bill, she held her hand out and resembled a blonde fifties-era drive thru waitress on roller-skates waiting for my order, chewing pink bubble gum
i felt like such a dork on, i got the money, and without even looking at me, she handed me my reciept, and i waited a split second for her to hand me my change, then i looked to the right and heard the tell-tale clunky clunk of the automatic change machine.... didn't even get to make hand contact
so there you go, i skipped class at 11AM for nothing....
actually i was upset i lost my extra credit work i was going to turn in the last day today
there was only a movie today, and i was so frustrated i took it out on myself, forcing punishment on myself, to do chores.
i looked for 30 minutes through my bag for that yellow (shiny golden in my mind, by this time) sheet of paper, to of no avail.
victory and tampa, theres the mini-mall where my adventures and mishaps begin and end.
i talk to random girls online all the time, but i never expect it to go anywhere
much like that time at hollywood where we saw chevy chase
sorta like that time i was at KFC and i saw hulk hogan.....
yeah, just random pretty girls i see while i have my jumbo glasses on..... :(
i'm a sucker for long, black haired, sporatic girls who mistreat/ignore/abuse me
see also: Amanda
see also: curvy hips, and luscious lips
see also: henna tatooes
see also: independant
see also: innovative, illustrious, elusive, etc etc
clothes dont matter, the girl i want won't need them :)
the girl i want won't have all these things, well not all at the same time anyway.
too much talking, back to work and my two lunch jumbo jacks, which by the way cost 1.29 now instead of 99c
next blog i will talk about: the secret life of catch phrases, and how they are significant amongst friends
Saturday, August 02, 2003
i'm lazy so i'll just copy and paste today from someone elses blog who has more energy:
tonight was awesome!!!. Before i went to practice i checked my mail and got the ptw and throwdown cds. I didnt order the throwdown but i didnt pay for it so its okay and ill give em a chance. arrived at johns house to find like 10 people there which made it weird to play since we havent played in front of people but we tried to treat it as a regular practice. after a while this old guy that lives in the house behind john walked all the way around the block and asked us to turn down our amps so we did but the urge to turn up for short periods was too much for us and we let our ears indulge. "eyes to eulogies" has become our favorite song....its so awesome and im glad im not gonna just play it alone at the show because its so great with the rest of the band. as we were coming to a close somebody called john and eric said "was that you calling him" which gave me a good idea. i kept calling over and over forces john to sigh and run to the phone. right before he would pick it up i would hang up and call again while he was walking away. after awhile he got two more friends to help him catch the prank caller. after getting an ab workout from laughing so hard i stayed on the phone until john picked up. "hello?"......"youre an idiot john....turn around"...there was an explosion of laughter from everyone and it was great!.. later we tried it on his sister but she looked at the caller id and asked what my last name was so i lied and held onto the secret for longer. went to del and got the usual! came back and we couldnt play anymore so we were looking for a way to keep interested. we started playing on the bass drum and singing irish chants for the neighbor and i suggested we bring out a cowbell. alyssa, johns sister, will do anything so we told her to go to the fence and play cowbell for the neighbor. she mustve played for about a minute straight and it was hilarious, but no one is ever satisfied with what they have so we took it to the next step. we sent alyssa in front of daniels (lurch) house with the cow bell and she played loud and yelled stuff like "daniel i love you and i want you to know im going to keep the baby"....after she did it for the second time i gave her daniels number and she called. i told her just to say like "i love you and i dont care about the 20 other guys" but her comments were a little more ....graphic. it was hilarious!! then their older brother william got home and everyone started yelling at everyone so i tried to lighten people up with lines like "its not a tu mah (tumor)" and "monkey poop sex". after a while william said we all had to go so we got in lukes small ass '87 crx. that was fun...no, really, it was. we sang "so last summer" on the way to my dads warehouse and i think if i worked on singing i could be at least decent.
tonight was awesome!!!. Before i went to practice i checked my mail and got the ptw and throwdown cds. I didnt order the throwdown but i didnt pay for it so its okay and ill give em a chance. arrived at johns house to find like 10 people there which made it weird to play since we havent played in front of people but we tried to treat it as a regular practice. after a while this old guy that lives in the house behind john walked all the way around the block and asked us to turn down our amps so we did but the urge to turn up for short periods was too much for us and we let our ears indulge. "eyes to eulogies" has become our favorite song....its so awesome and im glad im not gonna just play it alone at the show because its so great with the rest of the band. as we were coming to a close somebody called john and eric said "was that you calling him" which gave me a good idea. i kept calling over and over forces john to sigh and run to the phone. right before he would pick it up i would hang up and call again while he was walking away. after awhile he got two more friends to help him catch the prank caller. after getting an ab workout from laughing so hard i stayed on the phone until john picked up. "hello?"......"youre an idiot john....turn around"...there was an explosion of laughter from everyone and it was great!.. later we tried it on his sister but she looked at the caller id and asked what my last name was so i lied and held onto the secret for longer. went to del and got the usual! came back and we couldnt play anymore so we were looking for a way to keep interested. we started playing on the bass drum and singing irish chants for the neighbor and i suggested we bring out a cowbell. alyssa, johns sister, will do anything so we told her to go to the fence and play cowbell for the neighbor. she mustve played for about a minute straight and it was hilarious, but no one is ever satisfied with what they have so we took it to the next step. we sent alyssa in front of daniels (lurch) house with the cow bell and she played loud and yelled stuff like "daniel i love you and i want you to know im going to keep the baby"....after she did it for the second time i gave her daniels number and she called. i told her just to say like "i love you and i dont care about the 20 other guys" but her comments were a little more ....graphic. it was hilarious!! then their older brother william got home and everyone started yelling at everyone so i tried to lighten people up with lines like "its not a tu mah (tumor)" and "monkey poop sex". after a while william said we all had to go so we got in lukes small ass '87 crx. that was fun...no, really, it was. we sang "so last summer" on the way to my dads warehouse and i think if i worked on singing i could be at least decent.
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