UNIVERSITY HELP DESK FOR LIFE~!!!!!

haha. ahem, well. I've come to a few conclusions about my life.
It's definitely getting better now that s h e is gone. I mean, I have my own place, girls calling me out the yin yang, food, drink, and ramen. yes ramen makes everything better. thanks gretchen. Its funny that it took that for me to come to the astounding truth.

another conclusion is the fact that all my friends think grace is a bitch. not true. also which makes me wonder, its probably the same way on the opposite side. only i get to be called an asshole or something like that. yay, promotion to asshole.
My answer to that is this: I don't know who reads this or who wants to know, probably nobody cares, well fuck you, these are just my thoughts, I am free to express my opinion.
There's slander behind both our backs probably, and I for one don't think thats fair. Nobody knows me, I've come to that descision, nobody truly knows me.

I do not think Grace
is, or was, a bitch, let me just state that. Angry words for angry times, thats all it was. I'm fair.
She just acted poorly towards the end. We all did. So mutually we were asses and bitches. There, I hope thats settled. It is in my mind at least.

A lot of talking going on. Spent the night talking to David and Jabbar. The roomies.
It feels like I have gained 2 blood brothers.

Erg, hate to do it, but here's more ranting on Grace. A chapter in my life that is closed. What do I think of her not talking to me? Good I say. It takes someone stronger to be able to talk when it hurts. But are we truly enemies? I think she will adhere to whatever her friends say. Let me speculate on what they say about me. I was an ass. Yes. I called her when I was not suppossed to. I hung on a little to long. Yes. I had one day where it all broke down. But thats it. I've come out a new man. I've come out of it stronger. close to 2 years of my life, and I'm supposed to just forget about and move on? unfair.
But yes, now its been a month. time to move on, time to move on.

So I was an ass, thats what they will say, maybe because they want her to feel better, and because they don't know me. Fine.
I have to laugh at the fact she had to find solace in another guy. Find someone else to help heal her hurts. How weak. Well, she's a girl, its only natural. I stress the word girl. A woman would say something. Come forward. I'm tired of these girls who don't know what they want. She probably still needs to figure herself out.

Ranting done.
I do babble a lot. Nobody's ever said it to my face. Though I know. Also, its not always good to rantsome thing are better left unsaid....
I would say that I solved my own problems, albeit I went about it the wrong way. But I had few to turn to, and fewer to depend on. I refuse to just fall for the next girl to come along. How cheap. I am my own fortress.

God I must sound so fucking egotistical. Sorry. Well, at least I am self-aware then. oh yeah i'm suppossed to talk about myself, well its a blog anyway so :P

My thoughts. Its who I am. I am honored to share them with you. Anyone who would take the time to read this, for curiosity, for spite, for pity, for anything, I applaud you. It must take some effort to sift through the random-straightforwardness that is my brain. Oxymorons are cool, and warm.

Ever notice how people don't take emails and IM's seriously? I think its a very formal media to transmit thoughts an ideas. Very novel, very modern. Typing, it takes more effort than talking, maybe thats why. Its very convenient too, you can respond in your own time. What i HATE is when people don't respond. Its like, your taking the time and effort to communicate with them, the least they could to is try and communicate with you.

I think my writing is improving. I might take the time and minor in english and journalism, it might be useful. Also Jeff is really gettin me into the coolness of mustangs, they really aren't that bad now that I look at them.....

Motorcycle or mustang? I wish I had a voting thing to put on my website. But I'm just a poorboy.
I need no sympathy.
Easy come, easy go.