Strange days. I feel like I'm in limbo. Limbo with the opposite sex, limbo with school, limbo with everything.
Do the limbo.
I just hope the stick doesn't fall on my head if I don't make it.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that women are all around me. I don't need a certain one. This is a transitional period. There will be dating, there will be dancing. There will be laughing. There will be me making an ass out of myself.

I looked down leaving bio class a few days ago, and I notice this asian girl had a page of sailor moon art in her binder. That was pretty cool. I smiled as I walked by. I hate when I smile.

I looked around my aikido class, there are other girls besides aikido girl that are hot. What was i think. I've got to take things a little slower. I need to think more before acting on things.

Fucked up at the party friday, and got fucked up. Seriously, I need to wait a while before I start drinking, so I can remember stuff. Everything is a blur. A girl told me i gave her a foot massage, then i remember it vaguely. Thats scary.
Fucked up because we didnt have all the lights we bought out and on, and many people bailed. At least I know who the true "core" of my friends are now.

Harboring secret hates, thats not me at all, whats wrong with me, what is happening to me?

I must be changing.