the amanda story: continued

well so we went out, and things started to go wrong i guess
it was cool cuz we could like talk forever on the phone, but sometimes she had to go so soon, and some weeks i'd barely talk to her.
back then I didn't really have transportation, but I had my own place.
anyway, long story short, we lasted until december, about 2-4 weeks before christmas

I did wrong

I ended up starting to like someone else, and I thought the thing with Amanda was going nowhere.
It was probably one of the worst descisions of my life, when I was talking to her on the phone.
but at least I had told the truth. I never let my conscience eat at me. the truth comes out of me like a regular bowel movement.
Yes, so she was in tears, I remember, and she told me before I hung up she had bought us bracelets or necklaces or something engraved with our names. I can't remember exactly what it was, but it hurt.
It hurt because i realized that it wasn't her fault she was busy and couldn't call me or hang out.
I had made the wrong choice, very wrong. For the girl who I left Amanda was...... i don't know how to describe besides a big mistake also.

So we parted and went separate ways.
2 years later, I have a class with her.... and her boyfriend. Oh the joys.
All i can say is that her boyfriend became a good friend of mine, and he was one of the most honorable men I ever have known, to this date, but I guess they didn't work either, cause by the time the class was over, they broke up.
I wasn't after her because I had Grace, adn she wasn't after me cuz she had Joel.
So we never talked outside of class.
What a pity.

Ah, but I do things randomly, and after my big recent breakup a month ago, I decided it was time to move on. The only one I was thinking about was Amanda, and how things were left unresolved between us. So I sent her an email out of the blue.
Oh by the way, there was a long period of time before Grace, and I hand delivered flowers to her door for valentines, on a whim, just to be random again. Errrrr.....big mistake, I learned she was going out with someone, probably Joel. I hightailed it out of there and didn't speak to her again, until the class.

Ah the joys of chemistry.
There has always been a chemistry between us.
Maybe I can finally found out what it means.

Can't think of a good way to end this, other than I can't wait till she calls.