oh god, my roomate is playing this cheesy ass soft boys 2 men type music, i can understand, in the right situation, but ok, now this has to go off, right now.............(POW, BAM!!!) ok a head had to be chopped and its off now, its off

alright but thats not what i came online to blog about.

I am 20 fucking 2 and just now i feel like i'm getting started in life. You know what, i can give a damn about what all my exes are up to cuz you know, i can't don't give a damn. I have to learn how to move on with life. I get stronger every time, and even though my heart breaks to ever talk to them again, I know i'm doing better, and I know they don't deserve me.

Now that i've got a haircut and a new job, I'm a new man.

Went to wallmart today, a poor mans Sears i guess, so is target? Ah i am so confused when it comes to being a consumer. I just buy whatever.
bought these work uniforms, now I look like a friggin male nurse with spikey hair. i laugh at myself.
i was sitting in the massage chair today at work for like a half an hour and thought, oh shit! i'm getting paid for this, loQ.
Randomness - target somehow got the rights to sell one of my favorite brands - mossimo, this saddens me. Well, the stuff is cheaper now, so I guess that makes me happy.

So i am sitting here fixing this laptop that I was given to fix. Easy enough, diagnosed it, its just gonna be time consuming to do it.
i think its better to feel used than useless.

So I can dance, am musical, smart, entertaining, funny, and have a new haircut. Why haven't i found a girl yet? lol... maybe i need a different haircut. lol.......
I am going to stop looking. Maybe I'll randomly bump into someone and knock all their books out of their hands and have to pick them up and then look up and she'll be the girl of my dreams, thats how I always wanted it, isn't it?

Time is something that people can not afford to give me but I can afford to give others. Does anyone agree with me that a minute of time someone gives you is invaluable, priceless. Truly the girl who spends time with me with be far more appealing than the girl who does everything for me. Talking on the phone does not count. Talking online does not count.

I express myself best in writing.
Maybe I should give up talking to girls in person totally.
Just write cards and notes and letters, lol, thats all she needs.
More romantic anyway.
LoL, then I guess I need a girl who can understand me just by being with me. No words need to be said. No conversation needed.
I now officially hate the "we don't have conversations" thing.
Enjoy the Silence pops in my head. A song about drugs, heroin, in fact. Heroin is a middle class drug they say. it goes pot, heroin, crack.
you gotta be rich to be on crack.
yeah i don't know how i know this, lets just say someone i talk to is intelligent after all.
there is intelligent life out there.

random memory:
spirited away
how this relates to today:
recommending it to a friend and date, looking online, saw it got all A's from every single review in the country, oh, 1 A minus
looking on ebay, i find it sells imported on DVD for 60 dollars

a great movie, a great time, the greatest time wasted in my life

the guys are gonna take me out drinking today, their treat. i would have enjoyed their treat more if it was actually a week ago, when my actual birthday was. but eh, the world doesn't run on my time, it runs on its.
at least they are there for the most part.
beer has a lot of calories. time to run more.
my current exercise regimen is 20 pushups and 120 situps, a 2-5 mile run, and non fatty foods.
seems to be working

an ex said i got really big, and motioned her arms as to indicate growth of biceps
she's such a cutie, haven't heard word from her from t-land yet.
my tongue is hanging out, sorry.

which reminds me i'm put in a wierd situation with this girl from irvine.

MTV tells me that its spring break already
whoop dee do. . . thats me making an attempt at being sarcastic

at least i can go surfing now

complying with saying less, uh yeah.......... TRYING to anyway. i think i'll stop here.