I am hurt.
Grace, can we call it even?
Now I know how it feels to be hurt by the writings of someone else.
I apologize, in front of the whole world here, about what I've written in my blog, and what I've sent in emails.

I look back and I can only remember the hate poured in those last emails. Hate harbored from everything, and you became a big scapegoat. I wonder why you even deal with me now. I wonder how I deal with you. I wonder a lot of things. But we shouldn't overanalyze things. You do it, and then I do it, and we never get past "Hi" because of the analyzation on how that "Hi" was said.
Yeah so, sorry for the Hate Mails.
I am sorry.

I realize things now.
I can only imagine how I've hurt you, but, it is hard to realize someone elses pain when your own arm is cut off and bleeding. It was weak and childish of me to let it out the way I did. I should have dealt with it like the man I say I am.
God you make me sound like a womanizer, quoting how I said girls are weak. You didnt post the rest of that statement. Girls are weak, a WOMAN would have spoken up and said something. I was talking about how I thought it was immature how you did nothing as time passed by and I was left to wonder yet again.
I just want to get this out there that I am NOT my father.

And here I am defending myself against a months worth of posts against me. So be it.

I've cut you down, now I see you've cut me down as well. It actually feels good. Its good to finally hear something. You never really cut me down until just before we broke up. I needed that in order to move on, like I am now. Complacency and dependancy. We both were victims.

I'm a stalker psycho, as indicated in the song dedicated to me. Ouch. That hurts.
Your friends comment that I am a psycho. Ouch.

Your friends also commented that I was gay, and you went with them. Imagine how I felt.
Thats pretty low, stooping to that level, and if it wasn't so stupid and ridiculous I might be more offended, but I'll be the bigger than that and let it slide. What hurt the most is that you didn't even defend me, you wrote a 3 page letter saying how you were agreeing with them. Don't you guys have something better to talk about in UCLA than make gossip about people you don't know? Because they don't know me, hell, you spent 2 years with me, and I doubt what you know, if you came to that conclusion.

Forget calling you shallow. Thats my bad. That comes from the fact that.......nevermind, lets leave it at that....I am sorry, let it stop there.

I remember you apologized already, now its taken me this long to apologize in return, better late than never, I suppose.

Squish. Pop. Cicero.Uh-uh. Lipshitz. Can I even take a guess as to which one of those I am?
One word categorizations, pretty low, but again, it was probably deserved.

I see so many things reminding me of our relationship in little inside sidenotes in your blog I'd even have to say you aren't fully over it either. But cmon, taking the song I dedicated pho to you with? lol, jk, fair game i guess.

was the secret ninja a jab at me too?
one still wonders

c.d tguk, std
bad liar, head tilt.
BAH-sturd(lol, pretty creative, serious props for that one, it was insulting, but at the same time sweet)

recurring themes, life and history repeats itself

and I agree, I regret nothing
i regret nothing about what happened between us.

maybe i will find someone who's right for me
at least we saved the friendship, Grace
theres probably no better link to your high school past, not that you care about it, but I will always be here in case you you feel the need to reminisce, it would be tragic to forget everything.

also, like the tiger, i will be ready to pounce! whenever you need something pounced upon.
Because I am that kind of loyal-till-death friend.
Blind trust.

I summed up our relationship, or, or break-up rather, for the first time to someone else recently.....
"I dumped her because she didn't know who she was yet and didn't push me hard enough"
"She counter-dumped me because I had no goals yet and was too sensitive"

I would say also that you were too sad and I gave up trying to make you happy.

still things left unsaid, but there is still time to say it before nuclear fallout, i guess.