yes, the eternal struggle, maybe i should call my blog that,

the eternal stuggle

on sunday, i went to this cool odon obon udon festival, to meet someone.

i met an audrey from times of yore
i met 2 thai people, damn that konnichiwa song for implanting the image of vera wang in my head!

actually, this vera i think i made a pretty bad impression on
i was like feeling hyper, or OG luke-ish, if you've known me
and it kind of scared her i think
and then i had to be an ass and in my most polite way possible (standing up and yelling and pointing) i pointed out she had plastic on the top of her head.
she did not get this, and promptly walked away
i restated when she came back, and the problem was resolved, i still feel she's angry in a way.
the other thai person was a guy who was laid back and kind (he gave me a dollar for a drink, which i gave back after i found my hidden money)
he ran off with her, and i never saw them again

ah well, now on to the Main Event, me meeting the fabled friendster of new yore

my roomate paces as i write this, like he's sad he's been gone the whole day, got back home and realizes nobody is calling him, and he has nothing to do, either that or he's preparing to go somewhere, either way it annoys me, people poking around, moping about the house feeling s....
nevermind, he was looking for the phone.... which brings me to say, yeah, he needs to constantly feel like he's doing something useful, to give him the illusion of being busy, i hate people like that. i also hate the ignorant, and the people who like being weak. this has nothing to do with her, btw, just me being random

i act ignorant sometimes because of the joy it can bring.

man that was a big ramble, but yeah anyway, on with the main event...

i did a couple laps around the food court, and knew it was her first sighting, so like a peacock i prance around to see if she notices me, she probably does, but does not fully recognize

i finally thought of a genius way to make sure it was her before tapping the sunglass wearing japanese goddess on the shoulder

i would yell her name, and if she turned around, bingo!
and it worked!

i was wearing a blue hawaiian shirt, pink flowers, light material, last second logical decision based on the weather, i really wanted to go with a pretty cool long sleeved shirt
she was wearing a black top with a flowery patterned skirt, if it wasn't flowery, i don't know, because i didn't want to get caught looking at anything and have it mistaken for something else
enough about clothes tho, on the pie chart of saying things about someone, its only a slice.

she laughed a lot, and i could tell she liked me. i'm not that dense. no doubt she will read this, but nay, i never hold back opinions, so here we go...

she was nice, really nice, and laughed at all my jokes, which i don't find particularly funny, its just normal talking to me
i mean she really laughed, it made me feel good. i can't remember whether she broke the touch barrier by smacking me on the shoulder for being semi-crude or gently tapping me on the knee for a joke well done.

it was fun, defintely beats sitting on my ass at home, she bought me a salapao for 1.50, it was the best i ever had, but i just said it was ok, i don't know why, probably because she wouldn't have believed me that out of all the salapao i've had, that one was the best. its the best thing someones done for me in a long time, i was really starving, but trying to be polite, and she kept asking me if i wanted something to eat, but i only brought 6 dollars and spent it on terriyaki and corn. and a barley tea.
the best thing not just because she bought me a bun filled with bbq pork, but because she understood me, and knew that i was hungry even with me saying i didn't want any food.

call it in the air, call me old fashioned, but i feel bad having a girl pay for something for me, no matter how small it is
she also asked what i was doing this weekend, and one extra long hug in her car sealed the fact that she likes me

i don't know what to do, i feel so neutral, but something tells me she's great. i probably just need to get to know her more.

some odd facts:
she goes to ucla
she drives a benz
she has a lot of friends

intimidated? not really, thats not me. but i do feel sort of out of place. i go to csun and drive a junk heap and have a very small group of friends.

it was a great night, and i sort of spoiled it with that end note there, but i have to say what really sums it up was the cool evening breeze walking to her car.

i would comment on the hug and its meaning, but i'm not gonna over analyze, like holding a book you can't read anything when you are too close to it. well if its braille i suppose you could FEEL it and read it, but not with... ok the hug tangent is ending here

i missed my samurai-gentlemanly conduct rule that says i give one and only one comment on first meeting with a girl
so here goes:

nice? soothing? sweet?

ack i think that, i should just say, nice hair or skirt or something dumb

haha i'll end it here, for now, but trust me, i have many more things to say.