Ok, so to be friends with this person, i can call her, or see her in person, but i cant have her on my buddy list, or write her long emails. I don't get it.

Its funny because when i was trying to let things go and let things be cool and take her snide comments saying she couldn't come to my concert anymore, she kept pushing it farther and farther until i got mad too.

She expects me to bow down to her and call her and go see her when its probably conveinient for her, since she's the busy one. Fancy that. I guess 2 summer classes, 2 jobs, rent, bills, a house to clean up, dates to go on, errands to run for father, and a band, i guess i'm still not even able to come close to competing with her and her "Full Time Job". I'm not even trying to compete.

i hate the busy game, why can't we just say there's something else i have to do, and leave it at that?

And she accuses me of being threatened. Hell yeah i'm threatened. Imagine a fire-breathing ex breathing down your throat for 15 minutes.

It came back to the same thing, we don't have conversations. Well what the hell did we just talk about for those 15 minutes!?! If she wasn't so damn pessimistic she could see that we were actually giving each other opinions on how we felt towards the friends thing.

She'll be friends with me only at her conveinence, how grand.

I guess the acting is paying off, because she's fooling me into believing she's a ******* *****.

Its shit like that that makes you wonder if its worth it to be someones friend. What have I ever done to her? Wrote her a fricken email telling her why I have been angry with her for so long. I hoped she would understand and write back with an apology of some kind for not knowing i was still mad or *gasp, even apologizing for what she did, thats all I wanted. But nope, why even try to expect that, I have to go see her in person first, and endure the long silences she seems to revel in so much.

But you know what, i'm someones friend till the end. I gave her call, she didn't pick-up, how sporting and friendlike. So i will assume she was really busy, no hard feelings, I left her a message telling her how confused I was at her definition of a friend.

I hope she can calm down someday and realize that I really do want to be her friend. I missed class to go see her play, she didn't know, but she didn't even come say thanks after the play. And its cool she has something else to do and can't come to my concert. And its cool she ends the conversation just after she makes her point, leaving no chance to retort. I also find it funny how she always talks to me minutes before she has to go somewhere.

Fuck it, if it needs more time it needs more time. See you in a couple months. Don't let the door hit you in that inflated UCLA head you have.