yeah yeah, call me clingy, call me emotional, call me sensitive, call me obscure, random, and untimely, but still, thats me.

wrote one of those "i'm still your friend" letters today to someone in florida, i wonder what she's been doing with her life, i remember harvard, law school, and a humongus car accident, i hear about her in bits in pieces she relates over the phone, when i'm confused, groggy, and incoherent.

no i'm not drunk, thats just the way i am on the phone.

i get a lot of guff for my way of talking on the phone, sometimes i'm harsh, distant,
other times i'm jovial and playful, depends on when you catch me really.

the valley is one of those places where nothing happens to you until you get out.

other than the occasional bum, the occasional extra fast food you didn't order, and the band and medocre schooling you recieve,
it doesn't have much. just some friends you always know are there, and always act in the same way, same responses, same bad habits.

i applaud those of you who have left the valley or are leaving for new, different, and better things, grace, jenny, jack, gretchen, and those handful of people i met in high school parties.

everyone leaves the valley eventually, its just a matter of time.

for me, i consider it "coming back" from living in the desolate chicago, this place is an amusement park compared to there.

once i enjoy my time here, i'm bound to leave for something great.

i remember walking in chicago suburbia, little people with their little houses, wanting nothing more than to have a little store and a little family when they get old.
pish posh, we are destined for bigger things in life people!

my mom visited here actually, from chicago, and it seemed boring here to her.
of course i had work and other things, and i should have spent more time with her instead of dumping her off at the motel, but, all in all we went eveytwhere, all amusement parks except magic mountain, which i hate by the way.

The same lady works at the terminator 2 3D show at Universal studios as 5 years ago.
Can you imagine? Acting the same thing out every day for more than 5 years??
You know the bit..... "Welcome to Terminator 3d (or something like that), i'm sure you'll find it here, just SUPER!"
so sad. she's real. not animatronic!

such is our lives, we act the same things out everyday, to different people, sometimes we can change the script, but not by very much
its all planned
its all fate
its all choice
its all destiny

its all nothing