took a test, it was grand
got money, spent money, ate steak
Thursday, July 31, 2003
went bowling tonight, no boba with girls after :( , got a 103, and 125, getting better folks!
green tea with milk and 5 spoons sugar, while studying at 2:30 for great big test tommorrow, listened to some songs and found this, promptly repeated it 5-10 times and sang
Saves The Day - Freakish lyrics
As I'm talking my words slip to the floor
and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door
rendering me freakish and dazed.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
So I'll go walking through the streets until my heels bleed
and I'll sing out my song in case the birds wish to sing along.
And I'll dig a tunnel to the center of the universe.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
I'll make my way across the frozen sea, beyond the blank horizon,
when I can forget "you and me" and get a decent night's sleep.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
Don't shut me out.
green tea with milk and 5 spoons sugar, while studying at 2:30 for great big test tommorrow, listened to some songs and found this, promptly repeated it 5-10 times and sang
Saves The Day - Freakish lyrics
As I'm talking my words slip to the floor
and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door
rendering me freakish and dazed.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
So I'll go walking through the streets until my heels bleed
and I'll sing out my song in case the birds wish to sing along.
And I'll dig a tunnel to the center of the universe.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
I'll make my way across the frozen sea, beyond the blank horizon,
when I can forget "you and me" and get a decent night's sleep.
Well here I am. I don't know how to say this.
The only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
Don't shut me out.
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
what can i say? what can i say? oh twas a horrible day!
for one i didn't get to talk much to my online buddy :( she has a final :(
so now as i listen to blue monday i think of all the events that have transpired and transposed yesterday and today
i got a FLAT tire, devenshire, 5-6 pm, i guess ya had to be there to experience it.
2 good things... found tab cola, and i might be a thousandaire, my dad wants me to sell some 1950's elvis records, and a beatles one, they just scream ebay, and collectors items, so if you guys know anyone who is a crazy fan, AIM = wheresmyricebowl
email = luke.g@csun.edu
for one i didn't get to talk much to my online buddy :( she has a final :(
so now as i listen to blue monday i think of all the events that have transpired and transposed yesterday and today
i got a FLAT tire, devenshire, 5-6 pm, i guess ya had to be there to experience it.
2 good things... found tab cola, and i might be a thousandaire, my dad wants me to sell some 1950's elvis records, and a beatles one, they just scream ebay, and collectors items, so if you guys know anyone who is a crazy fan, AIM = wheresmyricebowl
email = luke.g@csun.edu
Tuesday, July 29, 2003
blog binging
currently eating: pork fu and rice (overcooked remix)
haha ok ok i'm done laughing at my little spoof of other peoples blogs
currently listening to:
myself chew, me play guitar all you wanted michelle branch remix?
ok a little better....
and now we have evolved into the true currently listening to:
blink 182 - every time i look
Everytime I look for you the sun goes down
And I stumble when this whole thing runs aground
I left another message, you are never around
But everytime I look for you the sun goes down once more
Will the last one out, please shut the door
More time apart will give you,
A few more months to argue
Is this to much to live through,
It always seems to far to drive
The point home, send more letters
Pray tomorrow, ends up better
currently eating: pork fu and rice (overcooked remix)
haha ok ok i'm done laughing at my little spoof of other peoples blogs
currently listening to:
myself chew, me play guitar all you wanted michelle branch remix?
ok a little better....
and now we have evolved into the true currently listening to:
blink 182 - every time i look
Everytime I look for you the sun goes down
And I stumble when this whole thing runs aground
I left another message, you are never around
But everytime I look for you the sun goes down once more
Will the last one out, please shut the door
More time apart will give you,
A few more months to argue
Is this to much to live through,
It always seems to far to drive
The point home, send more letters
Pray tomorrow, ends up better
Monday, July 28, 2003
yes, the eternal struggle, maybe i should call my blog that,
the eternal stuggle
on sunday, i went to this cool odon obon udon festival, to meet someone.
i met an audrey from times of yore
i met 2 thai people, damn that konnichiwa song for implanting the image of vera wang in my head!
actually, this vera i think i made a pretty bad impression on
i was like feeling hyper, or OG luke-ish, if you've known me
and it kind of scared her i think
and then i had to be an ass and in my most polite way possible (standing up and yelling and pointing) i pointed out she had plastic on the top of her head.
she did not get this, and promptly walked away
i restated when she came back, and the problem was resolved, i still feel she's angry in a way.
the other thai person was a guy who was laid back and kind (he gave me a dollar for a drink, which i gave back after i found my hidden money)
he ran off with her, and i never saw them again
ah well, now on to the Main Event, me meeting the fabled friendster of new yore
my roomate paces as i write this, like he's sad he's been gone the whole day, got back home and realizes nobody is calling him, and he has nothing to do, either that or he's preparing to go somewhere, either way it annoys me, people poking around, moping about the house feeling s....
nevermind, he was looking for the phone.... which brings me to say, yeah, he needs to constantly feel like he's doing something useful, to give him the illusion of being busy, i hate people like that. i also hate the ignorant, and the people who like being weak. this has nothing to do with her, btw, just me being random
i act ignorant sometimes because of the joy it can bring.
man that was a big ramble, but yeah anyway, on with the main event...
i did a couple laps around the food court, and knew it was her first sighting, so like a peacock i prance around to see if she notices me, she probably does, but does not fully recognize
i finally thought of a genius way to make sure it was her before tapping the sunglass wearing japanese goddess on the shoulder
i would yell her name, and if she turned around, bingo!
and it worked!
i was wearing a blue hawaiian shirt, pink flowers, light material, last second logical decision based on the weather, i really wanted to go with a pretty cool long sleeved shirt
she was wearing a black top with a flowery patterned skirt, if it wasn't flowery, i don't know, because i didn't want to get caught looking at anything and have it mistaken for something else
enough about clothes tho, on the pie chart of saying things about someone, its only a slice.
she laughed a lot, and i could tell she liked me. i'm not that dense. no doubt she will read this, but nay, i never hold back opinions, so here we go...
she was nice, really nice, and laughed at all my jokes, which i don't find particularly funny, its just normal talking to me
i mean she really laughed, it made me feel good. i can't remember whether she broke the touch barrier by smacking me on the shoulder for being semi-crude or gently tapping me on the knee for a joke well done.
it was fun, defintely beats sitting on my ass at home, she bought me a salapao for 1.50, it was the best i ever had, but i just said it was ok, i don't know why, probably because she wouldn't have believed me that out of all the salapao i've had, that one was the best. its the best thing someones done for me in a long time, i was really starving, but trying to be polite, and she kept asking me if i wanted something to eat, but i only brought 6 dollars and spent it on terriyaki and corn. and a barley tea.
the best thing not just because she bought me a bun filled with bbq pork, but because she understood me, and knew that i was hungry even with me saying i didn't want any food.
call it in the air, call me old fashioned, but i feel bad having a girl pay for something for me, no matter how small it is
she also asked what i was doing this weekend, and one extra long hug in her car sealed the fact that she likes me
i don't know what to do, i feel so neutral, but something tells me she's great. i probably just need to get to know her more.
some odd facts:
she goes to ucla
she drives a benz
she has a lot of friends
intimidated? not really, thats not me. but i do feel sort of out of place. i go to csun and drive a junk heap and have a very small group of friends.
it was a great night, and i sort of spoiled it with that end note there, but i have to say what really sums it up was the cool evening breeze walking to her car.
i would comment on the hug and its meaning, but i'm not gonna over analyze, like holding a book you can't read anything when you are too close to it. well if its braille i suppose you could FEEL it and read it, but not with... ok the hug tangent is ending here
i missed my samurai-gentlemanly conduct rule that says i give one and only one comment on first meeting with a girl
so here goes:
nice? soothing? sweet?
ack i think that, i should just say, nice hair or skirt or something dumb
haha i'll end it here, for now, but trust me, i have many more things to say.
the eternal stuggle
on sunday, i went to this cool odon obon udon festival, to meet someone.
i met an audrey from times of yore
i met 2 thai people, damn that konnichiwa song for implanting the image of vera wang in my head!
actually, this vera i think i made a pretty bad impression on
i was like feeling hyper, or OG luke-ish, if you've known me
and it kind of scared her i think
and then i had to be an ass and in my most polite way possible (standing up and yelling and pointing) i pointed out she had plastic on the top of her head.
she did not get this, and promptly walked away
i restated when she came back, and the problem was resolved, i still feel she's angry in a way.
the other thai person was a guy who was laid back and kind (he gave me a dollar for a drink, which i gave back after i found my hidden money)
he ran off with her, and i never saw them again
ah well, now on to the Main Event, me meeting the fabled friendster of new yore
my roomate paces as i write this, like he's sad he's been gone the whole day, got back home and realizes nobody is calling him, and he has nothing to do, either that or he's preparing to go somewhere, either way it annoys me, people poking around, moping about the house feeling s....
nevermind, he was looking for the phone.... which brings me to say, yeah, he needs to constantly feel like he's doing something useful, to give him the illusion of being busy, i hate people like that. i also hate the ignorant, and the people who like being weak. this has nothing to do with her, btw, just me being random
i act ignorant sometimes because of the joy it can bring.
man that was a big ramble, but yeah anyway, on with the main event...
i did a couple laps around the food court, and knew it was her first sighting, so like a peacock i prance around to see if she notices me, she probably does, but does not fully recognize
i finally thought of a genius way to make sure it was her before tapping the sunglass wearing japanese goddess on the shoulder
i would yell her name, and if she turned around, bingo!
and it worked!
i was wearing a blue hawaiian shirt, pink flowers, light material, last second logical decision based on the weather, i really wanted to go with a pretty cool long sleeved shirt
she was wearing a black top with a flowery patterned skirt, if it wasn't flowery, i don't know, because i didn't want to get caught looking at anything and have it mistaken for something else
enough about clothes tho, on the pie chart of saying things about someone, its only a slice.
she laughed a lot, and i could tell she liked me. i'm not that dense. no doubt she will read this, but nay, i never hold back opinions, so here we go...
she was nice, really nice, and laughed at all my jokes, which i don't find particularly funny, its just normal talking to me
i mean she really laughed, it made me feel good. i can't remember whether she broke the touch barrier by smacking me on the shoulder for being semi-crude or gently tapping me on the knee for a joke well done.
it was fun, defintely beats sitting on my ass at home, she bought me a salapao for 1.50, it was the best i ever had, but i just said it was ok, i don't know why, probably because she wouldn't have believed me that out of all the salapao i've had, that one was the best. its the best thing someones done for me in a long time, i was really starving, but trying to be polite, and she kept asking me if i wanted something to eat, but i only brought 6 dollars and spent it on terriyaki and corn. and a barley tea.
the best thing not just because she bought me a bun filled with bbq pork, but because she understood me, and knew that i was hungry even with me saying i didn't want any food.
call it in the air, call me old fashioned, but i feel bad having a girl pay for something for me, no matter how small it is
she also asked what i was doing this weekend, and one extra long hug in her car sealed the fact that she likes me
i don't know what to do, i feel so neutral, but something tells me she's great. i probably just need to get to know her more.
some odd facts:
she goes to ucla
she drives a benz
she has a lot of friends
intimidated? not really, thats not me. but i do feel sort of out of place. i go to csun and drive a junk heap and have a very small group of friends.
it was a great night, and i sort of spoiled it with that end note there, but i have to say what really sums it up was the cool evening breeze walking to her car.
i would comment on the hug and its meaning, but i'm not gonna over analyze, like holding a book you can't read anything when you are too close to it. well if its braille i suppose you could FEEL it and read it, but not with... ok the hug tangent is ending here
i missed my samurai-gentlemanly conduct rule that says i give one and only one comment on first meeting with a girl
so here goes:
nice? soothing? sweet?
ack i think that, i should just say, nice hair or skirt or something dumb
haha i'll end it here, for now, but trust me, i have many more things to say.
Friday, July 25, 2003
yeah yeah, call me clingy, call me emotional, call me sensitive, call me obscure, random, and untimely, but still, thats me.
wrote one of those "i'm still your friend" letters today to someone in florida, i wonder what she's been doing with her life, i remember harvard, law school, and a humongus car accident, i hear about her in bits in pieces she relates over the phone, when i'm confused, groggy, and incoherent.
no i'm not drunk, thats just the way i am on the phone.
i get a lot of guff for my way of talking on the phone, sometimes i'm harsh, distant,
other times i'm jovial and playful, depends on when you catch me really.
the valley is one of those places where nothing happens to you until you get out.
other than the occasional bum, the occasional extra fast food you didn't order, and the band and medocre schooling you recieve,
it doesn't have much. just some friends you always know are there, and always act in the same way, same responses, same bad habits.
i applaud those of you who have left the valley or are leaving for new, different, and better things, grace, jenny, jack, gretchen, and those handful of people i met in high school parties.
everyone leaves the valley eventually, its just a matter of time.
for me, i consider it "coming back" from living in the desolate chicago, this place is an amusement park compared to there.
once i enjoy my time here, i'm bound to leave for something great.
i remember walking in chicago suburbia, little people with their little houses, wanting nothing more than to have a little store and a little family when they get old.
pish posh, we are destined for bigger things in life people!
my mom visited here actually, from chicago, and it seemed boring here to her.
of course i had work and other things, and i should have spent more time with her instead of dumping her off at the motel, but, all in all we went eveytwhere, all amusement parks except magic mountain, which i hate by the way.
The same lady works at the terminator 2 3D show at Universal studios as 5 years ago.
Can you imagine? Acting the same thing out every day for more than 5 years??
You know the bit..... "Welcome to Terminator 3d (or something like that), i'm sure you'll find it here, just SUPER!"
so sad. she's real. not animatronic!
such is our lives, we act the same things out everyday, to different people, sometimes we can change the script, but not by very much
its all planned
its all fate
its all choice
its all destiny
its all nothing
wrote one of those "i'm still your friend" letters today to someone in florida, i wonder what she's been doing with her life, i remember harvard, law school, and a humongus car accident, i hear about her in bits in pieces she relates over the phone, when i'm confused, groggy, and incoherent.
no i'm not drunk, thats just the way i am on the phone.
i get a lot of guff for my way of talking on the phone, sometimes i'm harsh, distant,
other times i'm jovial and playful, depends on when you catch me really.
the valley is one of those places where nothing happens to you until you get out.
other than the occasional bum, the occasional extra fast food you didn't order, and the band and medocre schooling you recieve,
it doesn't have much. just some friends you always know are there, and always act in the same way, same responses, same bad habits.
i applaud those of you who have left the valley or are leaving for new, different, and better things, grace, jenny, jack, gretchen, and those handful of people i met in high school parties.
everyone leaves the valley eventually, its just a matter of time.
for me, i consider it "coming back" from living in the desolate chicago, this place is an amusement park compared to there.
once i enjoy my time here, i'm bound to leave for something great.
i remember walking in chicago suburbia, little people with their little houses, wanting nothing more than to have a little store and a little family when they get old.
pish posh, we are destined for bigger things in life people!
my mom visited here actually, from chicago, and it seemed boring here to her.
of course i had work and other things, and i should have spent more time with her instead of dumping her off at the motel, but, all in all we went eveytwhere, all amusement parks except magic mountain, which i hate by the way.
The same lady works at the terminator 2 3D show at Universal studios as 5 years ago.
Can you imagine? Acting the same thing out every day for more than 5 years??
You know the bit..... "Welcome to Terminator 3d (or something like that), i'm sure you'll find it here, just SUPER!"
so sad. she's real. not animatronic!
such is our lives, we act the same things out everyday, to different people, sometimes we can change the script, but not by very much
its all planned
its all fate
its all choice
its all destiny
its all nothing
today i finished off about a pint of icecream, much like the night before, felt good, then felt terrible.
I am still getting migranes all the time, like at mike's house today had to sleep cuz felt woozy.
probably got a c on the oceanagraphy test, whoopty doo
starting to be a little nicer in general.
it's starting to get close to showtime.
I am still getting migranes all the time, like at mike's house today had to sleep cuz felt woozy.
probably got a c on the oceanagraphy test, whoopty doo
starting to be a little nicer in general.
it's starting to get close to showtime.
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
Monday, July 21, 2003
Congratulations. You have completed the test.
Your score is 13!
11-15: Let's hear it for everyman! Congratulations, you are the poster child for 'Joe Average.'
fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck, just what i did not want to hear
Congratulations. You have completed the test.
i should have just left it like that
god knows i hate going to other peoples sites and reading what they got on their stupid tests
ah, join the herd i guess.
hey everyone! lets graze together!
Your score is 13!
11-15: Let's hear it for everyman! Congratulations, you are the poster child for 'Joe Average.'
fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck, just what i did not want to hear
Congratulations. You have completed the test.
i should have just left it like that
god knows i hate going to other peoples sites and reading what they got on their stupid tests
ah, join the herd i guess.
hey everyone! lets graze together!
ok that was 3 words, but yeah, the story behind that is that they hate me for being a son of another mother, that made our dad seem unfaithful, but he had already been divorced with her, so..... its not my freakin fault.
yeah, they have never tried to talk to me or sent me any letters, no email, no phone call. i don't have any brothers, in my eyes.
the one time i talked to the youngest, i don't even remember his name, he said i was a scrawny runt, barely speak thai, and lazy. by the way he was 25
he said this directly to his mom while i was standing there. afterwards he went to the bathroom, and i went upstairs to get my wallet then left outside to go for a walk. i never want to associate with them ever again. after all those years thats all he had to say. GOD DAMMIT....
i hate to share the same blood with people like that.
maybe thats why i always lash out at people who are around me, who are actually my friends, constantly picking at them, constantly making fun, especially those who are sensitive, or have hard times defending themselves. my own self loathing of the world and my family makes me do it.
but i do try to make up for it, with a constant loyalty to my friends, and sometimes unexpected pure self sacrifice, and random acts of kindness.
my father has been a womanizer for some time now, thats why i jitter when minako tells me she stops by his house
thats why i anger at the fact my old old girlfriend used to be alone with him, for even small amounts of time.
thats why i never brought my other ex to my house, except the outside ...once
sure he's funny, thoughtful, responsible, and a mix of some things i see in myself, but the fact has never changed that he's a womanizer, ever since i heard what he did to my aunt cindy and aunt karen.... fire burns in my heart, a contempt i hold against him that he will never know, because he is my father, and i could never bring it up to him, for fear of what he would say in return.
his brother is the same way, and theres something else i speculate he has done... but i'll save that story for a diffferent time
i hate him for that, and vow i will always treat women with respect and dignity, thats what his actions have made me do.
i was raised by my mom, i am a mommas boy, too sensitive, too moody.
i mean, what would he say? sorry? deny it? say it didn't happen? i know it happened and theres nothing he can do to change that, except change his ways. and in all the things i have ever seen him do, he has never changed his ways, and it has never changed my opinion that although he is a good person at heart, he is a terrible man, and something i will avoid becoming for the rest of my life, so help me.
yeah, they have never tried to talk to me or sent me any letters, no email, no phone call. i don't have any brothers, in my eyes.
the one time i talked to the youngest, i don't even remember his name, he said i was a scrawny runt, barely speak thai, and lazy. by the way he was 25
he said this directly to his mom while i was standing there. afterwards he went to the bathroom, and i went upstairs to get my wallet then left outside to go for a walk. i never want to associate with them ever again. after all those years thats all he had to say. GOD DAMMIT....
i hate to share the same blood with people like that.
maybe thats why i always lash out at people who are around me, who are actually my friends, constantly picking at them, constantly making fun, especially those who are sensitive, or have hard times defending themselves. my own self loathing of the world and my family makes me do it.
but i do try to make up for it, with a constant loyalty to my friends, and sometimes unexpected pure self sacrifice, and random acts of kindness.
my father has been a womanizer for some time now, thats why i jitter when minako tells me she stops by his house
thats why i anger at the fact my old old girlfriend used to be alone with him, for even small amounts of time.
thats why i never brought my other ex to my house, except the outside ...once
sure he's funny, thoughtful, responsible, and a mix of some things i see in myself, but the fact has never changed that he's a womanizer, ever since i heard what he did to my aunt cindy and aunt karen.... fire burns in my heart, a contempt i hold against him that he will never know, because he is my father, and i could never bring it up to him, for fear of what he would say in return.
his brother is the same way, and theres something else i speculate he has done... but i'll save that story for a diffferent time
i hate him for that, and vow i will always treat women with respect and dignity, thats what his actions have made me do.
i was raised by my mom, i am a mommas boy, too sensitive, too moody.
i mean, what would he say? sorry? deny it? say it didn't happen? i know it happened and theres nothing he can do to change that, except change his ways. and in all the things i have ever seen him do, he has never changed his ways, and it has never changed my opinion that although he is a good person at heart, he is a terrible man, and something i will avoid becoming for the rest of my life, so help me.
ah, virus free
in more ways than one.
btw got my health insurance evaluation back, they say i'm fit as a fiddle, free of any diseases!
lol yay...
in other news, today is turning out to be a pretty friggin awesome day
apart from the the way i woke up, with a migrane and late for class, everything that happened after 10 am was great
1. got let out early from class
2. found out starbuck sells chocolate malts now, got a venti!
3. in the MOST awesomest news today, i went to cj's next to sb's and got 2 sc's. if you understood all that, then you should also know that instead of giving me 2 spicy chickens, they had a school coming through with a huge order, and I GOT 8 FRIGGIN SPICY CHICKEN SANDWICHES, for FREE!!!
this is the happiest day of my life! *tear
they are piled in my refridgerator, and i am stockpiling them like post apocolyptic spam
i brought 2 to work, they bring me happiness
indeed its the simple things in life....
*cue the no doubt song to echo in my head
in more ways than one.
btw got my health insurance evaluation back, they say i'm fit as a fiddle, free of any diseases!
lol yay...
in other news, today is turning out to be a pretty friggin awesome day
apart from the the way i woke up, with a migrane and late for class, everything that happened after 10 am was great
1. got let out early from class
2. found out starbuck sells chocolate malts now, got a venti!
3. in the MOST awesomest news today, i went to cj's next to sb's and got 2 sc's. if you understood all that, then you should also know that instead of giving me 2 spicy chickens, they had a school coming through with a huge order, and I GOT 8 FRIGGIN SPICY CHICKEN SANDWICHES, for FREE!!!
this is the happiest day of my life! *tear
they are piled in my refridgerator, and i am stockpiling them like post apocolyptic spam
i brought 2 to work, they bring me happiness
indeed its the simple things in life....
*cue the no doubt song to echo in my head
Friday, July 18, 2003
Dude, given up the pc video games, forever.
need to do more with life.
found 538 virii on my computer, awesome, jabbar had 11.
Went bowling with Jack, looked like a big dork, got a 30, then a 95! I am the worst bowler in the history of mankind. :)
all asian crowds are fun! Plus I got to hang out with my bestest pal Jack.
boba afterwards, acted like a big dork. awesome orange boba tea.
worked on songs with mike, its all starting to fall to together.
muhuha *hands rub together
things are over between me and minako, but i'm still taking her to T3 this saturday.
my room is a mess, my dishes need to be done, and we are going to start to buy our own food, no more community food. :(
Aey sent me a text message from Thailand, pretty cool.
actually went to the library, read 3 music books "how to start your own rock band", "the guitar", and "History of the Guitar", and one insult book, "Cuts Like a Knife." and one for fun "Famous Last Words"
I'll probably go the library again before I die, most likely to waste time while my taqpe recorder records the lecture or if I plan to have a quiet study room and play guitar acoustically and come up with stuff.
this is Cat Corbit from KROQ saying, C-ya (thats so cute when she says that)
need to do more with life.
found 538 virii on my computer, awesome, jabbar had 11.
Went bowling with Jack, looked like a big dork, got a 30, then a 95! I am the worst bowler in the history of mankind. :)
all asian crowds are fun! Plus I got to hang out with my bestest pal Jack.
boba afterwards, acted like a big dork. awesome orange boba tea.
worked on songs with mike, its all starting to fall to together.
muhuha *hands rub together
things are over between me and minako, but i'm still taking her to T3 this saturday.
my room is a mess, my dishes need to be done, and we are going to start to buy our own food, no more community food. :(
Aey sent me a text message from Thailand, pretty cool.
actually went to the library, read 3 music books "how to start your own rock band", "the guitar", and "History of the Guitar", and one insult book, "Cuts Like a Knife." and one for fun "Famous Last Words"
I'll probably go the library again before I die, most likely to waste time while my taqpe recorder records the lecture or if I plan to have a quiet study room and play guitar acoustically and come up with stuff.
this is Cat Corbit from KROQ saying, C-ya (thats so cute when she says that)
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
Ok, so to be friends with this person, i can call her, or see her in person, but i cant have her on my buddy list, or write her long emails. I don't get it.
Its funny because when i was trying to let things go and let things be cool and take her snide comments saying she couldn't come to my concert anymore, she kept pushing it farther and farther until i got mad too.
She expects me to bow down to her and call her and go see her when its probably conveinient for her, since she's the busy one. Fancy that. I guess 2 summer classes, 2 jobs, rent, bills, a house to clean up, dates to go on, errands to run for father, and a band, i guess i'm still not even able to come close to competing with her and her "Full Time Job". I'm not even trying to compete.
i hate the busy game, why can't we just say there's something else i have to do, and leave it at that?
And she accuses me of being threatened. Hell yeah i'm threatened. Imagine a fire-breathing ex breathing down your throat for 15 minutes.
It came back to the same thing, we don't have conversations. Well what the hell did we just talk about for those 15 minutes!?! If she wasn't so damn pessimistic she could see that we were actually giving each other opinions on how we felt towards the friends thing.
She'll be friends with me only at her conveinence, how grand.
I guess the acting is paying off, because she's fooling me into believing she's a ******* *****.
Its shit like that that makes you wonder if its worth it to be someones friend. What have I ever done to her? Wrote her a fricken email telling her why I have been angry with her for so long. I hoped she would understand and write back with an apology of some kind for not knowing i was still mad or *gasp, even apologizing for what she did, thats all I wanted. But nope, why even try to expect that, I have to go see her in person first, and endure the long silences she seems to revel in so much.
But you know what, i'm someones friend till the end. I gave her call, she didn't pick-up, how sporting and friendlike. So i will assume she was really busy, no hard feelings, I left her a message telling her how confused I was at her definition of a friend.
I hope she can calm down someday and realize that I really do want to be her friend. I missed class to go see her play, she didn't know, but she didn't even come say thanks after the play. And its cool she has something else to do and can't come to my concert. And its cool she ends the conversation just after she makes her point, leaving no chance to retort. I also find it funny how she always talks to me minutes before she has to go somewhere.
Fuck it, if it needs more time it needs more time. See you in a couple months. Don't let the door hit you in that inflated UCLA head you have.
Its funny because when i was trying to let things go and let things be cool and take her snide comments saying she couldn't come to my concert anymore, she kept pushing it farther and farther until i got mad too.
She expects me to bow down to her and call her and go see her when its probably conveinient for her, since she's the busy one. Fancy that. I guess 2 summer classes, 2 jobs, rent, bills, a house to clean up, dates to go on, errands to run for father, and a band, i guess i'm still not even able to come close to competing with her and her "Full Time Job". I'm not even trying to compete.
i hate the busy game, why can't we just say there's something else i have to do, and leave it at that?
And she accuses me of being threatened. Hell yeah i'm threatened. Imagine a fire-breathing ex breathing down your throat for 15 minutes.
It came back to the same thing, we don't have conversations. Well what the hell did we just talk about for those 15 minutes!?! If she wasn't so damn pessimistic she could see that we were actually giving each other opinions on how we felt towards the friends thing.
She'll be friends with me only at her conveinence, how grand.
I guess the acting is paying off, because she's fooling me into believing she's a ******* *****.
Its shit like that that makes you wonder if its worth it to be someones friend. What have I ever done to her? Wrote her a fricken email telling her why I have been angry with her for so long. I hoped she would understand and write back with an apology of some kind for not knowing i was still mad or *gasp, even apologizing for what she did, thats all I wanted. But nope, why even try to expect that, I have to go see her in person first, and endure the long silences she seems to revel in so much.
But you know what, i'm someones friend till the end. I gave her call, she didn't pick-up, how sporting and friendlike. So i will assume she was really busy, no hard feelings, I left her a message telling her how confused I was at her definition of a friend.
I hope she can calm down someday and realize that I really do want to be her friend. I missed class to go see her play, she didn't know, but she didn't even come say thanks after the play. And its cool she has something else to do and can't come to my concert. And its cool she ends the conversation just after she makes her point, leaving no chance to retort. I also find it funny how she always talks to me minutes before she has to go somewhere.
Fuck it, if it needs more time it needs more time. See you in a couple months. Don't let the door hit you in that inflated UCLA head you have.
Monday, July 14, 2003
Ever have a million dollar idea?
Well i do, and i have them so regularly its scary, it's like a menstrual cycle. oh no i'm LATE!! where's my tampax!? ah joke possibilities are endless.
i'd have been a millionare by now if i had any ambition.
Thats why I liked that old game for NES, Nobunaga's Ambition, thats a cool ass name man. In fact i'll pass that around at the next band meeting. I like people with ambition, hanging around them, because in ways that sparks my competitive drive, and makes me ambitious too.
Men are competitive by nature, women are nuturing.
i average about 1 million idea every couple of months
Well, here's the list of what i can rember for now
1. front brake signals
2. anime rental store
3. tacos with combo beef and chicken
4. crinkle fries at other fast food resturants
5. a band that doesnt suck
Well i do, and i have them so regularly its scary, it's like a menstrual cycle. oh no i'm LATE!! where's my tampax!? ah joke possibilities are endless.
i'd have been a millionare by now if i had any ambition.
Thats why I liked that old game for NES, Nobunaga's Ambition, thats a cool ass name man. In fact i'll pass that around at the next band meeting. I like people with ambition, hanging around them, because in ways that sparks my competitive drive, and makes me ambitious too.
Men are competitive by nature, women are nuturing.
i average about 1 million idea every couple of months
Well, here's the list of what i can rember for now
1. front brake signals
2. anime rental store
3. tacos with combo beef and chicken
4. crinkle fries at other fast food resturants
5. a band that doesnt suck
Thursday, July 10, 2003
random letter:
Hi,
You never did tell me about Hawaii sitting in the
living room.
Did you sign that page and mail it back to me? That is
important.
Did you go on a date with the Japanese girl yet?
Oh, send me your Dad's e-mail address ok.
Thanks.
Mom
--- Luke Gwrote:
> Hope you got home safe and sound! I definitely had a
> fun time with you here,
> and i still have hawaii sitting in the living
> room,thanks. I was wondering
> if you could send me the pictures you had on floppy?
> thanks mom,
> Luke
>
>
Hi,
You never did tell me about Hawaii sitting in the
living room.
Did you sign that page and mail it back to me? That is
important.
Did you go on a date with the Japanese girl yet?
Oh, send me your Dad's e-mail address ok.
Thanks.
Mom
--- Luke G
> Hope you got home safe and sound! I definitely had a
> fun time with you here,
> and i still have hawaii sitting in the living
> room,thanks. I was wondering
> if you could send me the pictures you had on floppy?
> thanks mom,
> Luke
>
>
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
damn what am i doing up? blogging i guess.
here's what happened these past few days that might be noteworthy:
i didn't have class today cuz my instructor came more than 20 minutes late, we petitioned a college rule paper we left on the door.
i got a call from minako who said we could go out "in a couple of weeks". bullet to the head? thanks, don't mind if i do.
i saved my first life, well not really, i just stopped a few kids from running around the pool.
i ate jumbalaya, well not really, i just wanted to say that word for some reason.
i lost all the lyrics to my songs, they were on the computer when it got erased. god why must you whack me so?
i think my insomnia is coming back, if you couldn't tell from the blog times.
i installed this languegue learning cd thing on my computer, i don't think i will use it more than twice
i actually did my homework, and think i will continue in this respect, homework can be turned in through email before midnight the day it is due, AN EDUCATIONAL PROCRASTINATORS DREAM!
found a ton of fun stuff to do online
shigata ga nai.....
here's what happened these past few days that might be noteworthy:
i didn't have class today cuz my instructor came more than 20 minutes late, we petitioned a college rule paper we left on the door.
i got a call from minako who said we could go out "in a couple of weeks". bullet to the head? thanks, don't mind if i do.
i saved my first life, well not really, i just stopped a few kids from running around the pool.
i ate jumbalaya, well not really, i just wanted to say that word for some reason.
i lost all the lyrics to my songs, they were on the computer when it got erased. god why must you whack me so?
i think my insomnia is coming back, if you couldn't tell from the blog times.
i installed this languegue learning cd thing on my computer, i don't think i will use it more than twice
i actually did my homework, and think i will continue in this respect, homework can be turned in through email before midnight the day it is due, AN EDUCATIONAL PROCRASTINATORS DREAM!
found a ton of fun stuff to do online
shigata ga nai.....
Monday, July 07, 2003
Sunday, July 06, 2003
so familiar, you'll puke
i am near finished with many of my songs, lets see how having the band will polish them up
*laughs at the fact polish and polish are spelled the same....
one i am very proud of i finished today, its called "when i'm gone"
its a very nice acoustic piece, the first i've written of the sort
very unlike "my car" which is very poppy
i hope i can make more like the acoustic one
i am near finished with many of my songs, lets see how having the band will polish them up
*laughs at the fact polish and polish are spelled the same....
one i am very proud of i finished today, its called "when i'm gone"
its a very nice acoustic piece, the first i've written of the sort
very unlike "my car" which is very poppy
i hope i can make more like the acoustic one
Friday, July 04, 2003
the goal is in my mind indeed, since i don't have work tommorrow, er, today
i worked on the songs, they are getting much better
i'm scared we will be underprepared for the show,
but hey, we only have to play 4 songs
as for today, july 4th, looks like i'll be watching the fireworks alone, again.
as for yesterday, i went to the beach with david and his oldest sister, it was fun, or insane i should say
i never get tired of having an insanely running nose from being in insanely cold water for insane amounts of time
i worked on the songs, they are getting much better
i'm scared we will be underprepared for the show,
but hey, we only have to play 4 songs
as for today, july 4th, looks like i'll be watching the fireworks alone, again.
as for yesterday, i went to the beach with david and his oldest sister, it was fun, or insane i should say
i never get tired of having an insanely running nose from being in insanely cold water for insane amounts of time
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
man i still can't believe Minako counter-cancelled on our date, it must be in response to my cancelling her
or maybe she really did have to pick up someone from the airport and have a party
i told her to call me when she has time
i don't ever expect a call again
meanwhile, Tiffany is KIA, the girl on the second floor is MIA, Aey doesn't call back, Amanda blocks and ignores me, and Kristina says hi, lol
and i feel the love flowing around me, its summer, and because of sweltering heat, love is humid in the form of vapors around my brow
david has chosen, jabbar is back with his "perfect" match, jeff and gretchen no doubt have hidden agendas on their own timelines of love
and i sit here, broken hearted, oh god, i hope nobody knows the ending to that joke
i have much to say about both jabbar and david, but i don't feel like being more of an ass now, maybe later
ghost dog, that was funny
i should get a new phone, one thats nice, and not too expensive, yes, a shrubbery, no, i mean a phone, i mean, ahhhhhhhhhh
its late.......
or maybe she really did have to pick up someone from the airport and have a party
i told her to call me when she has time
i don't ever expect a call again
meanwhile, Tiffany is KIA, the girl on the second floor is MIA, Aey doesn't call back, Amanda blocks and ignores me, and Kristina says hi, lol
and i feel the love flowing around me, its summer, and because of sweltering heat, love is humid in the form of vapors around my brow
david has chosen, jabbar is back with his "perfect" match, jeff and gretchen no doubt have hidden agendas on their own timelines of love
and i sit here, broken hearted, oh god, i hope nobody knows the ending to that joke
i have much to say about both jabbar and david, but i don't feel like being more of an ass now, maybe later
ghost dog, that was funny
i should get a new phone, one thats nice, and not too expensive, yes, a shrubbery, no, i mean a phone, i mean, ahhhhhhhhhh
its late.......
man, missed a day somewheres
did a couple of things:
watched the goldenboy series again
finally finished love hina
forever banned sakura diaries
downloaded and watched reqiuem for a dream (i'm a believer that some movies get better the second time through)
made the easiest 20 bucks of my life, and i didnt even have to take off my pants
yes, the movie was better the second time through
a girl made me watch that years ago, and i hid my interest in it, even though she was sparked as all hell to watch that, and i probably liked it as much as her, i curbed my emotions, i don't know why, but i didn't let her know i liked it, same goes for y tu mama tambien
this girl, i remember her well, she showed up at daves birthday, i saw her, and two giant steps back, only to trip over somes foot
this girl has an interesting midas touch, whatever she touches either turns to gold, or it turns to shit
examples of things she touches that turn to shit: the computer i built for her, the laptop she broke, the party she attended, me
examples of things she touches that turn to gold: her job, club, ideas, me
ah, so each day that passes brings me closer to the show at the colbalt, not the best venue, but hey, you gotta start somewheres.
i have practice again tommorrow, this time with a new drummer
oh yeah, the 20 bucks, that was from lifeguarding, 1 hour, jewish kids, great stuff.
did a couple of things:
watched the goldenboy series again
finally finished love hina
forever banned sakura diaries
downloaded and watched reqiuem for a dream (i'm a believer that some movies get better the second time through)
made the easiest 20 bucks of my life, and i didnt even have to take off my pants
yes, the movie was better the second time through
a girl made me watch that years ago, and i hid my interest in it, even though she was sparked as all hell to watch that, and i probably liked it as much as her, i curbed my emotions, i don't know why, but i didn't let her know i liked it, same goes for y tu mama tambien
this girl, i remember her well, she showed up at daves birthday, i saw her, and two giant steps back, only to trip over somes foot
this girl has an interesting midas touch, whatever she touches either turns to gold, or it turns to shit
examples of things she touches that turn to shit: the computer i built for her, the laptop she broke, the party she attended, me
examples of things she touches that turn to gold: her job, club, ideas, me
ah, so each day that passes brings me closer to the show at the colbalt, not the best venue, but hey, you gotta start somewheres.
i have practice again tommorrow, this time with a new drummer
oh yeah, the 20 bucks, that was from lifeguarding, 1 hour, jewish kids, great stuff.
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