hows life?

question i ask many people, now i ask myself
as i stand at the edge of another permanent break up
i look back at old email, pitifuly

i look back at even older email,
and realize these two girls have done the exact same thing to me

god, i loved them both at one time
love. theres a word that doesn't lose its strength for me
but some people believe it does

i have to hate grace not to love her, thats not hard to do
it balances out, to a safe medium that friends can be
i think i can just walk away from laura, battered a bit
Aey was the most horrible break up i ever had, i threw her clothes out of the closet and i kicked her out of my apartment, she'll never forgive me for that but i'll never forgive her for cheating on me
Audrey was so far back i can't even remember what happened now, only theres a slight burning sensation and feels like a hole

thats how they all feel. like someone took a red hot smithing poker and jabbed it thru my heart

hurts for a second, but then it becomes fashionable to wear jewelry thru your pierced heart

i'm not unlike the hamster i now keep in a cage

i think i now owe laura a haiku - -

We could have worked out,
But now you're such a big fuss.
Get hit by a bus.

that was so hillari-ous