ooo ooo, i look just like buddy holly.

at least thats whats some say when i wear my glasses, such as now.

watched the order last night with the guys.
during the first 30 minutes, i got 4 calls. first 3 from jong and the last from laura.
somehow i knew she'd call when i was in the theatre. 10:30 pm, i would have called her if i was anywhere else.
nah, i had it on silent, so it didnt bother nobody.
its funny, but because of the first 3 flashes, i was ready to just turn it off if it was jong again on the fourth, but, there was that thought, in the back of my mind, that it could be her. and lo' and behold, it was.

so seeing "LCELL"'s name come up, i run out of the theatre like i have a hernia, and calmly and cooly hit the button and answer with hello in my smoothest voice. and she couldn't hear me, so i had to say it a few times, embarrassment as some of the ushers looked at me funny. in fact, i was so excited at the call i started saying hello really loud before i got out the theatre door, i hope it just blent in with the movie.

so yeah um hum, she didnt sound too happy, and i knew she had called before, so i really had to answer it, then she let me go watch the movie., hahah. as i was saying i missed her she hung up.

she called this morning before i woke up, my phone was still on silent from the movie.....didn't get to answer it.

its by these calls i know she really cares, and even tho sometimes i'm not there, i do intend to make it up to her when she gets back. and now i can impress her with my knowlege of sex and the city and the 3 cantonese phrases i learned before i lost the book.

i guess i worry as much about her when she's gone as she does me, and thats comforting to know. similar while away.


remember the part in lord of the rings 2 where that elf girl has to make the descision to stay and live 1000 years after her lovers death, or to go off and go to "elf heaven". she had a talk with her dad and chose elf heaven.

there are truths in this world. good. evil. but love is all up to the beholder. maybe love is that neutral between good and evil. maybe it is above good. maybe it is below evil.

moulin rouge - the greatest thing is to love and be loved in return.

in "the order", the man has to chose whether to live life without the love of a woman, or a painfully immmoral life to him with her. he chose her, then it so happens he is granted immortal life, and has to live with the pain of loss.

whos to say he couldnt love again? and again? and again?

is there a limit to how much love you have?

meanwhile, theres jalaura, and all my friends except for kevin don't have anybody. i feel lucky.
of course, after a point, i was always looking for someone. now that i have her, she's not here....

irony is the cloak we have to wear sometimes when its supposed to be raining happiness.

right now... i am listening to "Superstar" by roller girl. stupidest song i think i have ever heard, but i heard it first with her, and when i listen to it i can remember that day, and i can remember her, and so on and so on.

i believe most people are dictated by past experiences, and i'm not an exception.