altruism

n : the quality of unselfish concern for the welfare of others [syn: selflessness]

i am an altruist. as much as a randomist.

i've gotten key hints that people are reading my blog. i just want to give a shout out to those. don't worry. i'm watching you too :P. jk.

i must say that altough you can read everything about me for the last 500 days (blogger limit) please don't hold anything against me, and don't let it stop you from finding out who i really am.

i realize that i might say this girl and that guy and what not, but i realize that we all are people and should be treated as such. i just am interested in a few. if they don't want to meet me, thats fine. now that i've said that i'll make the list. the list you've been eagerly awaiting. the list of those i would like to meet, meet again, get to know better, or just hang out with someday.

no particular order. of course.

(Revision) (i took out the list because i forgot i don't want to put real names on my blog anymore, there were more than 25 names)


now thats a fat fucking list of people. and theres some people on my buddy list that i don't even remember their names, the list gets smaller everyday, believe me.

now that you know some of the shit i have to deal with. there even more. shit stacked upon shit, so high you'd never find waldo.

some of these people don't even give a shit about me. then theres the people i don't know where i stand with. then theres the people that actually probably hate me.

you could ask anyone. i don't think i deserve to be hated by anyone. i'm the most laid back, non-obtrusive, non-mean guy there is. although i do make jokes.

so when i get turned down before even actually given a chance to meet someone it actually hurts. and when i have to forget some people. it actually hurts. and when people choose to forget me. it actually hurts. i don't know why, i shouldn't care about people more than myself, but maybe thats the altruism.

as my senescence grows, down the tubes some relationships go, and i realize this.

bottom line is, the list of people i need to meet is getting too big. no more meeting new people after this. i'm at my limit.