More to say.

I spent a lovely friday at home today. thinking about where i'm going in life. could have went to three different things but didn't feel like it. i need to sort things out. things like "WTF i'm 23 and I have no job!". yeah i kinda fired from lifeguarding. nah jk, they found a full timer or something. lol not that i really care. its summer.

Dad made another gesture today, brought me a water cooler. Woke me up 3 times in doing so. ironic - he kind of annoyed me and i haven't seen him for 1 minute this week.

I'm forgiving. Although I'd forgive Laura for what she's done to me I don't think she'll forgive me for what I've done to her. I've poxed her name to all 3 people who read this.

I've poxed her name again last blog. I'll let that one sit a while. Since she likes to read my blog so much that should be a nice stew for her to read that and not be able to talk to me about it because she's never online and won't call me.

read'em and weep. oh wait. you already have!

How can I hate you, how can I harbor such hate in such a short time? Complicated. and it hasn't been such a short time, its been a few months.

Ah well this has turned into another "flame Laura" post, but I think its worth it. to get the message through.

the message is: either really truly be my friend and stop pretending, or get the fuck out my life.

audrey plays that game too. we talk once in every fuckin blue-green-moldy-cheese moon.

grace kept her distance for a long time, now we're on talking terms again. the moon didn't quite get so moldy.

aey and i don't have any way of contacting each other, but we'd still talk too. i have a feeling this is a moon that i will never see again.

i hate this shit.