begining to realize that a fear is welling up in me;

what if all my blogs from then till now disappeared?

i will start backing them up.

why i like kristina-
she says whats on her mind (you have no idea what a relief this is after the toils of a past relationship)
she's beautiful (replace beautiful with cute, and thats what i call her instead)
she has no affiliation with anime of any kind, or any part of being asian
there are more complicated fetishes that we won't get into
uh....maybe i shouldn't have used the word fetishes, but hey, i never erase anything i blog.
we do have things in common

in short, she's like nothing i've seen before

why i like thai grace-
shes crazy! but sweet. cute to boot.
she knows music, how to dress in the b-girl style
she knows how to have fun
she's a girl you could have a beer with

but she's too thai for me
and she's too distant, physically, emotionally, and historically

why i like amanda-

um..... uh......
i just do.

why i like melissa-
we have like everything in common but our names

lol but i think there seems to be a favorite color discrepancy

why i like biology girl, and aikido girl and other biology girl
why i like biology club and band, and hot dogs and ramen, and ok whatever else

i can't tell you everything i like, that would take too god damn long
but heres a little piece of philosophy i philosophised on my way to class in my half-asleep haze:

if you can't say anything
say everything
if you can't do anything
do everything
if you can't feel anything
feel nothing

maybe this version is better, i dunno, you subliminally tell me:

if you don't know what to say
say everything
if you don't know what to do
do everything
if you don't know what to feel
feel nothing