my last message to jeff, after calling him twice and leaving a lot of IM messages for him. i have no idea what happened and i guess i never will because he just wants to be a mother fucking bitch for the rest of his life, and i've never had anything but the most respect for that guy. it makes me sad to see it all come down like this:

Sent at 7:12 PM on Monday
me: i'm curious to know if i did something to get you angry
cuz if so i dont know what it was
and if so i think you should tell me
because we've been friends for so long
if not
if ur just busy, you've been busy for a long long time
and i apologize if its something i did
and not realized
but also
the silent treatment is getting old
this is something girls do
cmon dont be a girl
then if you dont want to talk
consider this my last message
and i'm going to go off on you
for being kind of a dick friend too
once u got your new aikido friends
u never really called to hang out anymore
and sure friends drift apart but i've never seen more drift than from u
i mean cmon, you'd rather watch a basketball game than hang out with mike and i?
fuck that
thats not the jeff i know
you've changed man
and for the worst
i don't think i can call you my friend anymore
but u were a best friend to me
i hooked you up with jenny
remember that
i told you to take the aikido class at csun
remember that
when i came back to cali u were the friend i wanted to see
after what, 10 years?
now what
i can't even stop you from being a coward
and hiding behind IM
i called you, twice
two messages
to talk about this
ok ur afk now
but read this well
because its the last i'm going to try to talk to you
cya