doctors never seem healthy
building contractors never seem to live in a finished home
psychics never seem to like to predict their own fate

many times we are the cause of our own suffering.

tonight after a grueling day of work i still managed to squeeze in a movie with a friend.

movie was ong-bak: thai warrior. friend was indy, the old would be roomate.

she said for a kung fu film she really liked it, gave it an A. i said if not for the bad thai acting, it would have got an A+ from me. it just annoys me also how they put dumbfuck in the subtitles for a word that should clearly be asshole.

found bbq chicken tombstone pizzas at ralphs. need to stock up on those.

the ride home i was wondering what happens when cop cars that have "CA exempt" on their license plates go to another state. do the cops in arizona go "you're my bitch now! you aren't exempt here mother fucker!" and arrest them or what?

worst part of every day so far has been stnding over my flushed toilet to make sure fills its duty completely before i walk away. i feel like some sort of turd vulture.

housesitting.

saturday night.

when i could be partying it up in irvine.

damn.

my time will come.

i moved.

van nuys ain't that bad.

the new place currently smells like uncooked fish. the toilet just broke, and my bed is in the living room, but its home, dammit.

a distinct thai feel in the house. thai roomate.

and i haven't found a car yet.
cars that i might get:

ford ranger, or f-150
civic hybrid
anything not a crx

inviting all my friends to come visit me at least once now that i got out of hell that was panorama city.

reading "lullaby" by pauliniuc. story about a guy who finds a song that kills people. very cool.
every wednsday i get the privilege to spit on the ground in front of grace's apartment as i walk on the way to thai club.

that's all i have to say about that.

my car was totalled yesterday.

i went to visit jeff and watch some anime videos. i was going to leave after the first episode, thank god i didn't. had i been in my car 15 minutes earlier i would have been dead.

someone going up the street, in a 2002 dark grey metallic or silver metallic jaguar, blasted into my car at speeds above 80 mph, almost tearing it in half. there was a car parked in front of me, it almost got barrelled into a house, wrecking the side concrete cinderblocks of their garden.

on top of it all, it was a hit and run. the driver was not caught yet. we didn't get the license plate, we weren't outside at the time.

the lady who witnessed it said she saw the whole thing. her boyfriend (the car that almost went into the house) had full coverage, so they did not go after the guy.

last thing she said, "i know its not the time, but if it cheers you up, theres a party next friday here."

i responded, tears and anger welling up, "gee, thats nice, but how am i going to get there?"

remember, you heard the random stuff here first

http://www.drivenbyboredom.com/Movies.htm
http://www.ninjaburger.com/employment
http://www.everyvideogame.com
http://www.japanesesnacks.com/newjs.php?id=121
http://www.samuraiburger.com/

just got home. hate when i'm not home for the whole day because of work and school.

anyways, valentines day is past. i bought a 10 dollar box of chocolates and ended up having to eat it myself cuz i blew aey (vicky) off till friday because i'm evil, and because of other girls blowing me off, um, mind out of gutter please.

a bunch of half eaten ones. i hate the chocolate that comes in those boxes. especially the nasty white stuff filled ones.

back to the vicky thing. she likes me. calls me all time and text messages me. she was the one who cheated on me. ever since that i've never been the same. i never saw myself so angry as the day she told me. i threw all her stuff out of the apartment and she cried for half an hour. now she broke up with that guy and wants me back. i think she likes me because i hardly take notice of her. like sasuke and sakura in naruto.

anyway she calls me monday, valentines day, and says she wants to hang out. i tell her ok, and wait till 9:30 to call her for the nights date. then i tell her i can't go and i'll be available friday. so she has to wait all week to see me. like i said. i'm evil. but she was evil first. she has no idea that i still really don't like her and never forgave her for what she did.

the high point of valentines day was at work when i said to a customer service girl "hey, happy thanksgiving!" in my most sincere, happy voice. and she echoed back "happy thanksgiving!", then realized what she had said. made me laugh at my own evil joke and made my day.

so, as a bonus in my evil mood, here's a list of turn on's. may some girl see it and propose to me. in no particular order here.

1. henna tatooes (or any tatoo on the lower back)
2. cooking
3. when they call you pet names / call you baby
4. shyness
5. blue eyeshadow
6. long naturally colored hair
7. ug boots (dammit!)

jAzMeEn AnGeL (8:33:41 PM): but hey. imma go shower now and stuff
jAzMeEn AnGeL (8:33:43 PM): ttyl
wheresmyricebowl (8:33:47 PM): cya
wheresmyricebowl (8:33:54 PM): remember to wash your butt
jAzMeEn AnGeL (8:34:02 PM): uh sure
wheresmyricebowl (8:34:22 PM): cmon that was funny
wheresmyricebowl (8:34:25 PM): AHAHAHAHAH

that will forever be my response when someone tells me they are gonna shower

when jogging, tired and worn out, you reach that half way point.

the point at which you turn your head over your shoulder and look back.

you think to yourself. "i'd better turn back before i get too tired and have to rest"

i'm the guy who doesn't look back. i run full circle. i don't go back the same way. i see new things on the way. even if that means being exhausted by the time i can rest.

i never look over my shoulder to see where i came from. what matters is i'm here now. i got here. and i've got to get myself out. i'm not gonna stop until i come full circle.

i guess i really am a breaker at heart. i cut my hair so short my headphones won't stay on anymore.

thats sad my afro was holding my headphones before.

at least i can wear a hat in cool ways again.

Another plane another train Another bottle in the brain Another girl another fight Another drive all night

the beastie boys know my pain!

http://www.csun.edu/~lg39114/

see what you can see.

hear what you can hear.

recompiling thoughts.

hung out with a someone all day today. i should just refer to people anonomously from now on so i don't hurt anyone's feelings. she's very cool.

superbowl, waste of trying hope. i fell asleep. i did like the godaddy.com commercial though. feel sorry for that girl, just can't keep her shirt strap from breaking. ;)

laura and andrew..... the gay. none of my business, but feel sorry for jabbar. but maybe just maybe he's starting to get what he deserves.

slowly moving into my new place. a gay guy there too. hey, they are clean. maybe i can borrow some of his million abercrombie shirts. argh, slap me for the idea.

fuck

i'm a regular ucla wanna-be.

maybe i should hang around usc to even things out or something.

here's a few letters i wrote for fun:
----------letter to blizzard.com---------

Hey noobs,

I've been playing World of Warcraft retail since mid Dec. 2004. What is with the Blackrock server? I know it is one of the most highly populated servers, but it goes down 5 out of the 7 days of the week. I may not know how to set up a mmorpg server, but even I know that is just ridiculus. Every time it goes down for "maintenance" it comes back up with all new problems again. Why don't you noobs get your noob server to stay up for 24 hours at least, then work from there. I seriously hope you aren't wasting your resources to make add-ons/expansion packs for a game that isn't even complete. Many quests are bugged, theres not enough high level profession crafting goods to make, and the pvp allows a high level character from the opposing side to kill and re-kill as long as he wants with no penalty until someone begs a person his level or higher to drive him away. Why don't GM's do something useful and cool like help in making the safe zones really safe; the NPC's just aren't enough to handle some of the raids I've seen, the city gets wiped out and the town is unusable. I don't even level up for fun anymore and enjoy the game, its a race to get to the highest level possible so you're not wiped out everywhere you go, a game should not be this way, even on a pvp server. I wouldn't mind dying to a way higher level if they got dishonor points for it. I'm not giving you noobs any more money if these problems aren't fixed by the time an expansion comes out, that's just preposterous. Cya noobs.

Haomaru on Blackrock(don't I have balls for giving you my player name? I didn't use any vulgarity and i have been just expressing my opinion so you have no right to do anything but fix your noobing game, and server.)


-----an excerpt from a letter to an ex--------------

I'm begining to see why guys (and people in general) start not to like you. You're fake. You act all cute and nice when you need something, like in my case you needed a place to stay, like when you called sirin for the same reason, but then you turn and become cold and apathetic when they don't have exactly what you need at the time. You're so fake, pirite fool's gold and yourself are dug up from the same dirt. You make pirite seem like its a 50 pound bar of minted US treasury gold. You'll never have a boyfriend for more than a few years because its just impossible to fool someone for that long with your fakeness.

I'm god damned tired of being stepped on/used/being made a fool of, by you. I did not come down there to make myself look better, and to make your recent ex look worse. We're above and beyond all that already. It wasn't "look at me, I'm a goody two shoes!" It wasn't "gee, I hope I get some." You are missing the essential ethic that people just aren't selfish like you all the time. Apparently you still need to learn what a friend is. Apparently you can plan and travel to DC with no car, but you can't come visit me with no car. Not once since you ever stepped foot onto UCLA 3 years ago have you ever been up to visit me, your friend. You've just become "better" than all of us, i suppose. You will travel the continent to do what you like but you won't travel the valley to do something that has a very slight chance of not directly benefiting you.

it took me the car ride home to think of this phrase for you, but if i had to call you anything, i'd call you a phenomenally septic ice witch.

average person falls asleep at the wheel 11 times in life.

i have none so far.

but i'll probably get hit by the asshole who is on number 9.

people, if you're that tired pull over.

i met a girl today! YES!

she's never had a boyfriend. NO!

an OUTRAGE.

i had a hankerin for some rice today, so i went to the cafeteria and got the 1 item combo i could afford. i get up to the cashier. and she charges me 48 cents for a cup of water.

how hebrew is that?

3 granola bars and a gatorade later (breakfast).

the chinese must really populate the earth a lot. i saw a someone yesterday before class. i was wearing a punk uniform of black sweater, jeans, and a wallet chain. she was wearing sweats and some sort of pink and black sneakers. hair dyed in the same way it always was.

i thought. we're so different. then i thought. maybe i'm the one who is different. everyone else is the same.

we exchanged numbers and i told her i'd call her. which i didn't. which is so me.

been single for 8 months now. maybe thats why.

good news. my insomnia might be cured. school did it.

bad news. i am now waking up at ungodly hours like this.

interesting night.

had some fun for once.

further evidence that thai girls are hoes.

So I walk in KFC

thats the joke.

working on my snarl.

figure i gotta have a snarl so i can impress girls that are in the Soldier video by Destiny's Child.

wheresmyricebowl (6:56:54 AM): ever had the feeling you were talking to yourself?wheresmyricebowl (6:56:54 AM): ever had the feeling you were talking to yourself?wheresmyricebowl (6:57:04 AM): like your the only one who is there
wheresmyricebowl (6:57:04 AM): like your the only one who is there
wheresmyricebowl (6:58:03 AM): and the one who cares is the one who stares behind reflective glass as a stain rolls down a facet of flesh
wheresmyricebowl (6:58:03 AM): and the one who cares is the one who stares behind reflective glass as a stain rolls down a facet of flesh

i went to sleep 2 hours ago.

i woke up 2 minutes ago.

sometimes i would rather cut your lips right off your face than kiss them goodnight

but then sometimes you can make a room feel perfect when you try because a mouth full of lies will leave a sour taste that cuts just like a knife as it slides down your throat

you give up the world and fall to your knees to show me that you care

we could believe in windows but behind the broken glass are fairy tales in her bedroom i am throwing pieces of what i wish i could be knowing that someday in her bedroom she will know. here we go.

oh yeah remind me to move out already.

once in middle school when i first started playing guitar, i thought of a pretty cool name for a song/band.

Anger in A Minor

i searched google. looks like its still available.

back then i can't remember how many heckles i got for lugging the thing to school. although a few people thought it was cool i still couldn't be one of the "in" crowd.

now that playing guitar is cool and everyone is doing it. it sort of upsets me. i'll always be better than them i suppose, but the kind of instant coolness that you get from playing guitar nowadays should be reserved for those who had to take spitballs to the head in middle school.

second day of school was worse than first. nobody i knew in class, not even an andrew the gay. class was 25 minutes longer, and i was beaten in the arcade by a ken turtle.

on the good side. i got some beef jerky stuck in my teeth and some decent sleep. ok, on the good side, i just got some sleep.

tommorrow i go to thai club again where theres girls that will laugh at my hip hop moves.