no i didnt wake up this early, i've stayed up this late.

the only way i'll make it thru this is staying up all night so that i'll sleep the next day.

i've said last words to Grace. again. i've never had so many mixed feelings about a single person in all my life. however, no matter what you have in terms of feelings for a person, the strongest one still remains. the one you fight hardest to control and contain. and it only brings you down. i had something witty to say about love, but i forgot, now all i want to say is all it does is bite me in the ass. yes, bite me in the ass and make me run.

when you have loved someone, its there until it is replaced with an equal amount of some other feeling.

and when that person is around, you once had feelings for, its like seeing a picture in your house that you have no idea how it got there. wtf is it doing there? and who put it there? you have no use for this picture. maybe you did at one point, but now its just taking up space. sure it may look nice, but what else is its purpose? i left it in my house for too long, and finally got tired of it.

songs that have been playing over and over in winamp lately:

The Killers - All these things
Daniel Beddingfield - Gotta get through this
Amber - Sexual

i got soul but i'm not a soldier.