Friday, October 31, 2003

almost getting to the laundry

soon. very soon.

turn our music down. and we whisper.

Things I have bought from Wal-mart to eat instead of Vons (in order of importance)

1. Chicken-in-a-biscuit crackers
2. ross swiss chemical orange juice, gallon
3. cheez-it crackers, garlic and parmesean (logo on back: Get Your Own Box")
4. white grape juice (unopened)
5. 1 box donuts, glazed
6. reeses halloween candy, eaten

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

My name is Luke. I don't know much about my name, and I've been able to research little of it my whole life, but I'll tell you what I know. I was born in 1981 and around that time the "Star Wars" movies had been coming out. As we all probably know, Luke Skywalker is the main character in the trilogy. One day my mother asked my father if "Luke" meant anything in Thai, which is my father's languege. It did have a meaning. It meant "baby", and that's what my father told my mother. There you go, the double meaning of my first name.
My last name isn't so easy. In fact, every place I've been to reearch it had come up with nothing. I know in Thai "glup" means to pray or show respect, and "ngam" means water. So my last name could be interpreted in english as "holy water". When my Uncle came here, he came at a different time than my father, and at immigration he took a different spelling of the last name. That different spelling is Klupngam, which my little cousins have today. Thats about all I've been able to find out on my last name.
I've hated my last name my whole life, and for most of the begining of my life I've hated my first name as well. Luke rhymes with a lot of bad things for schoolboys to taunt with. Not that I would take the taunting. I was big for my age back then.
So my mom is white (swedish and german) and my dad is Thai (central Thailand). There are no taboos around my name in Thai culture or in European culture. There is a joke in Thai that my family likes to remind me of though. In Thai "Luke" can mean many things, depending on pronunciation. It can mean ball, small, or if you really really mess up pronunciation, it can mean something bad that I won't say here. So they joke around with me with all those and used to laugh back when I couldn't pronounce my own name in Thai. Luke in the European sense is actually taken from the Bible, one of the four gospels, Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John.
I have thought very much about changed my name. My last name is just so gruesome to me, nobody can pronounce it or spell it. I even went so far as to find out how much it would cost. Currently it costs $248 for an official name change to anything you want from the Superior Court in Chatsworth. I would change only my last name, to Sangurai, my Thai grandmother's maiden name. She was a very good person. So in taking her last name I would keep my Thai tradition in tact, keep my very western first name, and all is well. I will probably change it early next year.

Monday, October 27, 2003

stuff to eat:

cinnimon toast crunch, cinnibons, bannanas, and whipped cream.

theres a party in my mouth and everyones invited!
2 months, no laundry

this weeks title should be "How to tell about your day and post conversations at the same time"
but i still havent done the laundry, so it has to keep the tit-le, i mean, title.

my aas210 teacher who i thought was cool is turning uncool

if you like puns read this:

wheresmyricebowl (3:53:09 PM): man
wheresmyricebowl (3:53:13 PM): physics
wheresmyricebowl (3:53:27 PM): i visited my professor at office hours
WHOA its LAURA (3:53:28 PM): uh huh?
wheresmyricebowl (3:53:32 PM): i feel like such a brown noser
wheresmyricebowl (3:54:44 PM): why dont i just kiss his ass or something
wheresmyricebowl (3:54:58 PM): they should call it, orifice hours, instead
WHOA its LAURA (3:55:27 PM): hahah
WHOA its LAURA (3:55:29 PM): hahhahahahahah
WHOA its LAURA (3:55:43 PM): i bet u were waiting to say " they should call it, orifice hours, instead" all day
wheresmyricebowl (3:56:00 PM): nah i just thought of that
WHOA its LAURA (3:56:18 PM): wow
WHOA its LAURA (3:56:24 PM): that was quite witty
WHOA its LAURA (3:56:30 PM): well, at least sucking up worx on ur physics teacher
wheresmyricebowl (3:56:32 PM): ty ty
wheresmyricebowl (3:56:42 PM): i like to think on the "fly"

Sunday, October 26, 2003

so 2 days and no call from my quarry. nothing but what bare rock can tell....

wonder how she's doing there in big bear.

should write paper

should get offline.

should do laundry.

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Didn't go to class today.
Having withdrawl, but not from that.

Kill Bill was cool. Friggin awesome in fact.
I forgot if I told you about the triple bus adventure i had when going to see laura one day when i didn't have my car.

Went to Denny's with Kris and Ed last night. I don't feel like slandering them, they are such cool people. Mike wasn't there. Mike has new rims. Jeff wasn't there. Jeff's girl is back in town. I'll have to talk more about these people when i get the chance.

I'm probably gonna go to thailand this winter, i really want to. and we all know what luke wants luke gets.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

Its time for...... (cue game show theme music)

Random Facts About Luke!
The game the whole family can enjoy!

he can use chopsticks but not fluenty!
learned how to touch type but has forgotten! still types at the same speed!
needs to do his laundry! 2+ months now!

watch as he fine tunes his work schedule so he can wake up past 10 and still slip into work unabashed!

haha. game shows. haha. nick at night.

i TOTALLY made up for my physics with the AAS210 midterm today! i havent felt this positive i got an A in something since i spelled my last name. ( two a's there, woop woop.)

A+ in fact. I celebrated with a sub sandwich.
Why do I always put mayonaise!!! i hate mayonaise! well not really. it just interferes with the taste i think if you put mayonaise and no mustard. makes the sandwich too sweet.

Ah i remember the days when i used to work at subway (wavey flashback screen)

I was young. it was right next to the gamestop of yore, i think back then it was called gameflash or gamecentral or gamesomething.

it was my first honest job. and man did i hate it.
i hated the feeling of urgency you are forced to have when a customer walks through the door. the PING PONG door alert pricks your ears and you wince.... what will it be this time? some fool who wil take half an hour to decide what he wants while you sit there staring blankly at him. Or perhaps a fat man who orders everything on the florecent menu, then gets mad if you dont put a pound of green peppers on his steak and cheese. And theres always the slight chance it could be a tester. Someone who comes in from the company and tests to see if the food and service is as spotless as the sneezeguard we have to clean every night.
I hated that job. I pity those that work at subway. For gods sake, they don't know what other jobs could be! You never have a second alone to yourself, to your thoughts. Fast food is hell and your manager is satan. sometimes you get to taste of the sin in your store but more often than not you become tired of it, and never eat there again...... until a group you are out with says "hey, lets eat at subway!"

i ate at subway today.

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Pulled off a random person's blog: (yes it could be you!)
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"I can't wait for my gpa to go up to 1.0, bring it on! "
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(LMAOLMAOLMAO)
*sigh that was funny....
pain.

cream pain.

another submitted physics test. i don't think i'm going to make it.

talking to old friends always seems to go beyond time and distance.

by random chance. i downloaded an anime called "Hoshi no Koe"
its about this girl Mikako, and how she falls in love with Noboru during junior high, but she gets sent away to be a secret flying robot pilot 8 light years away. They keep contact, and the further away she gets, the longer her phone messages take to get to him. finally one ends up taking a year to reach him, and he is still waiting, and the only thing that message said, was that it will be 8 years till the next message. she battles furiously against all odds, against odd aliens and huge alien motherships, and barely has time to send him messages. he's just a high school boy and eventually he gets a message from her when he's 24 from her when she's 15. he decided to train hard and enter the fleet to go see her. he trained his heart to be cold and strong during that period, but her never gave up.

guess ya had to be there. random anime. pretty good. very artsy. i watched it instead of writing my paper. eh well, i'll just write it when i get up, in a few hours.

ever see random playing cards strewn about on the sidewalk?
i do.
i see one at a time.
i wonder if its some sort of message from a higher being.

i went to walmart to boycott ralphs, planned to spend 40, but spent 120. wow. triple spendage. now i have no money, but plenty of non-perishable food.

i bought a triple laundry hamper and a canvas closet shoe organizer and a big blue bucket tuperware thing to store stuff in. i did the dishes and cleaned my corner of the house and did a tad of closet cleaning. go luke.

self analyzing my test, i guess i'd a good davey crocket. adventurous and helpful. i wonder what my wild frontier would be?

word of the wise to other bloggers, copy all your text before you try to publish in case it gets lost, you can just paste and republish. :)

Monday, October 20, 2003

another test -

Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||| 46%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Type 3 Ambition |||||||||||| 46%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||||| 62%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 54%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||| 70%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Type 8 Hostility |||||||||||||||| 62%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Your Conscious-Surface type is 7w6.
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 7w8.
some test -

The Big Five is currently the most accepted personality model in the scientific community. The Big Five emerged from the work of multiple independent scientists/researchers starting in the 1950s who using different techniques obtained similar results. Those results were that there are five distinct personality traits/dimensions. Here are your results on each dimension:



Extroversion results were moderately high which suggests you are talkative, optimistic, sociable and affectionate but possibly not very reflective.

Friendliness results were moderately high which suggests you are good natured, trusting, and helpful but possibly too much of a follower

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you tend to be unreliable, lazy, careless, and unmotivated.

Emotional Stability results were very high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, unemotional and possibly too unobservant of your feelings.

Intellectualness results were moderately high which suggests you are creative, original, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.

Overall, you scored highest on Emotional Stability and lowest on Orderliness.

this test was found @
www.similarminds.com

Thursday, October 16, 2003

$1400 dollars in registration, parking, and towing fees later....
i have my car back. and its only worth $900.

i guess i have no choice but to make it sentimental now.

put a new engine in and rice it out.

get a spikey haircut and become organic.

i like to be metaphysical instead.
based on the physical.
the physical is the here and now.
its what you can touch and feel.

work is great now. its better to work less and have more class i guess.
hahaha....puns.....

well all my money is gone. and all i have to show for it is and old car that shoots out white smoke in the morning.

i left my car at a two hour parking street today, instead of an hour. I wouldnt be surprised if i got a ticket when i get back. and its the first day i have my car back. this is due to trying to save 30 bucks by waiting till monday to buy my csun parking ticket, which will allow me to leave my car at csun instead on my street. i figure its safer.

so much schoolwork to do. its the middle of the year. yeah, don't read this, go do your homework.

I HATE FREAKIN THOSE ANIMATIONS THAT A SCARY FACE POPS OUT OF NOWHERE!
oh yeah, i have to go pick up my paycheck. bbl.

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Doesn't it feel great to be alive?
Molly was a good girl.

After the previous blog's insecurities I thought I might move along to more prevalent things.

Lets see, if you were my mom, you'd ask me how my day went. You'd ask me what i did, what i ate, and if studies were coming along. if you called.

The thing about vicky is: She'll come around, and disappear for weeks, and all the sudden show up and expect a recourse and a red carpet.

why are girls like this? do they only want you when your with someone else?

so who's this girl i'm seeing now? slowly learning about her. trying to be observent yet stay away and not smother. trying not to meld into one. i don't have to try very hard. without a car makes mileage meant for my car goes to my meandering fingers. push the plastic buttons... jolly candilike buttons.... sweet... a voice as such.

i have mess issues. i see her bed in disarray. it clearly reminds me of mine, and i just smile because i don't know how to explain to her we're alike in that way, and its beautiful. i never had to try so hard to make a girl laugh. in fact, i rarely have to try at all. she's got this texas mental shield towards valley humor.

am i attracted to girls who remind me of my mother? i don't think so. mere coincidences. coincidences i tell you.

i do think i need someone to keep me in line. and shake the candy drop tin of my nagasaki-grave-of-the-fireflies life.

if a luke fell into your life, and nobody was around to hear it, would it make a sound?

my impounded car fees now total more than $1300 dollars. i owe hundreds to my friends and father. yet i'm not stressed out.

the highlight of today is when i went to aas 210 and mrs. whatsername explained in so few words the problem of my life:

not enough stress

you see. you need stress. a little bit. just a little. stress activates your adrenal glands and get you going.

without stress you wouldn't get you out of bed. (luke)
without stress you wouldn't do your homework. (luke)
without stress you wouldn't study. (luke)

i feel neither fear nor stress.
which is a reason why i procrastinate.
why i don't get things done.
i don't fear the consequences.

parking tickets? impounding my car? fuck if i care.

its this apathy i need to avoid.

i need a little stress in my life.
sometimes i find it in a girl (mind occupied)
sometimes i find it among friends (drama)

but i never find it in school

was this because i never had parents around to keep me in line?
i was spoiled? the only child and therefore left to do as i wished?
Home sweet blogger.

You've never failed me, you're always here.

Until the day your server goes down.

Theres some things i have to say.
Theres some things i have to ask.

i'm not responsible. as another fight between me and my roomates would suggest.
i can't cook a lick. an empty white styrofoam take out box suggests me that.

am i funny?
do i try to hard at things that don't matter?

i can't save money.
i'm self indulgent.

Saturday, October 11, 2003

back from a getty adventure

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

its amazing the things you do for girls
and its amazing the things you don't do

my girl who is my friend can kick my ass in mario kart, in a way thats sexy

i need to re-hang the posters in my room and clean my closet, but whats the use?

call me Mr. Insight and join the 5 other people who have. including: 2 friends, a teacher, a girl who is my friend, and a random person on the street.

"wheresmyricebowl (4:18:18 PM): bf seems to be an abbreviation for buffoon doesnt it?"

i say more better things talking to people than i do on my blog, maybe thats where my creativity goes. sorry, you might be wasting your time here. haha. more better.

aspiring english major here, and look at all the mistypes in my previous blogs. so sad. yet so luke.

i miss seeing laura, and i never told her that vicky came around here looking to get back together or something, i had to tell her off. i guess she knows now....

not having a car lowers your self esteem. taking the bus, lowers yourself. yet you meet so many interesting people. like the lady with turrets, and Hattam (Adam). And random drunk soldiers.

AAS is so informing and inspiring, i can see why a half asian half black woman would want to teach it. However I don't think its healthy to always be so nationalist/activist.

Physics. I got an F on my first test. theres two more. if i get an A on the second one, that brings me up to a C, and if i get an A on the final I can get a B.!!!! ALL IS NOT LOST. but yeah, i'll have to study my ass off, yes, even I, the renowned non-studier will have to study my ass off to get A's.

Advanced Routing - that class at pierce is dead. i dropped it because i wanted free friday nights.

so now i have three classes and a semi job. life seems so empty

i did extra credit but didnt turn it in. story of my life.
i changed my work hours but it throws me off slightly. story of my week.
time to go to physics and semi doze off. story of my day.
so, i promised to tell you of my plans for my 3000 dollars i won in the lottery
and here we go:

1. pay off my freakin car (jeff said something about if the parking fees total more than your car is worth you can get a reduction) (yay only $200 more to go!)
2. buy new car (two cars, awesomeness)
3. buy more music equipment
4. pay back my dad
5. pay for school
6. save

darn, couldnt get the nice clean list of five, here, let me try again,
trivial things to do as of 10/7/03

1. study more
2. pay newly acquired parking bills
3. reinflate bike tires
4. buy grociries and live off them instead of carls junior
5. get off the video games
6. write more creatively and get off the lists

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

i will post this blog as on eof those "priceless" mastercard commercials

10 unpaid parking tickets
$761 in parking fees
1 big ugly orange boot on my car that makes it undrivable

a million stories to tell your friends how laszy you are: priceless

77% on AS test without studying
48% on physics test with studying all night
?% on upcoming AS2 test

knowing you are academically scewed for the year: priceless

Thursday, October 02, 2003

ahh, somewhat decent sleep. getting to work. but i'm missing class now. what gives?

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

Ah I made it to work on time, and i have time to blog!

i get my own room in january!!!!! this is going in it-
http://tatamiroom.com/cgi-local/catalog.pl?category=TATAMI_MATS-10

bbl