i got a job.

www.microleague.com

also www.pcsuperdeals.com

its like a dream job but with less pay.

i dont have to worry about coming in late

theres also a philipina named Shiela who works there, a definite hotty.....

i'll keep you posted

back to this thing again.

i got to thinking about jobs. blow jobs, work jobs, u name it.

naw jk thinking about work jobs. i had an interview today, with a vampire. almost, a nerdy microleaguecomputers.com guy named ned. ned is my would be boss. he looks middle eastern and stares at me from across his desk.

his stare is unwavering. e asks me questions. what are my long term goals. what kind of experience i have. all the time i'm thinking, why am i doing this for a 10 dollar an hour job?

and then i eat at subway and remember. this subway sandwich just cost 10 bucks.

first time in a while i got out of the house to do something besides drinking.

went to an anime expot type of thing.

people playing board games, walking around looking at comic books and toy vendors.

i think pat summed it up. "i think i realized today that we are nerds"

i said "maybe not nerds, probaly geeks, cuz we're cooler and better looking than nerds"

"definitely not dorks, definitely not dorks."

This song is called "kwam cheua" from the album Believe by Bodyslam Ft. Ad Carabao.


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???????????????????????????????????????????
man geuap ja lom man neuay man laa meuan taep kaat jai
It's almost collapsing, it's tiring. It's exhausting, almost like dying.

?????????????????????????????????????
dern maa jon tor mai jer joot maai bplaai taang tee fan
To walk till disheartened, not finding the destination of the dream.

??????????????????????????????????????? ????????
ja glap daai mai taa dern dtor bpai yaak yen ka-naat nan yang taam jai
Is it possible to turn back if walking on is that much difficult, I still ask myself.

??????????????????????????? ??????????????????????? ??????????????????
dta-lot chee-wit chan jer nai sing tee kit reu man ja bpen a-rai tee pit lae chan eng tee long taang
Throughout my life I find in my thoughts, whether it'll be whatever that's wrong, and I myself on that wrong path.

???????????????????????????? ?????????????????????
chee-wit man dtong dern dtaam haa kwaam fan hok lom klook klaan tao-rai
Life, it should be lived following your dream. No matter how many times you fall.

?????????????????? ??????????????????????????????
man ja bpai jop tee dtrong nai meua dern tao-rai man gor bpai mai teung
It will go and end at where-ever, when to walk however much, one also can't arrive.

???????????????????????????????????????
dern dtor chaa-chaa mai yaak bploi fan hai man loot meu
Walk on slowly, don't lose your dream, don't let it slip out of your hand.

????????????????????????????????????????
tee sang hai chan bpai dtor gor keu kwaam cheua tao nan
That which command me to go on is only faith alone.

???????????????????????????????????????? ??????????
kae nai wan nee rieow raeng yang leua gor yang dtong fan dtong gaao bpai
Even today, with the strength still left, then still should dream, should progress on.

??????????????????????????? ???????????????????????? ??????????????
dta-lot chee-wit chan jer nai sing tee kit mae mai waa man ja took reu pit ja kor tam soot hua jai
Throughout life I find in my thoughts, even though regardless of whether it'll be right or wrong, I'll do as I'm happy.

???????????????????????????? ?????????????????????
chee-wit man dtong dern dtaam haa kwaam fan hok lom klook klaan tao-rai
Life, it should be lived following your dream. No matter how many times you fall.

?????????????????? ????????????????????????
man ja bpai jop tee dtrong nai dtae ja yang ngai gor dtong bpai hai teung
It will go and end at where-ever, but whatever it'll be, one also should go on till you arrived.

????????????????????? ??????????????????????
???????????????????????????
tee soot taa man ja mai koom dtae man gor dee tee yaang noi
At the end, if it's not worthwhile, but it's also good that at least you can remember that once you'd ever progressed so.

?????????????????????? ??????????????????????????????????
kae kon tee cheua nai kwaam fan ja hay n?t ja neuay gor yang dtong dern dtor bpai
Only person that believe in dream, though it will be exhausting, will be tiring, will still want to walk on.

(Interude)

??????????????????????????
chan tor tae sak gee tee yang mee wang
I truly disheartened by however much, still have hope.

????????????????????????????????
mae plaat-plang sak gee krang yang fan glai
Even though I blundered however many times, I'll still dream afar.

?????????????????????? ?????????????????????????
mae chan lom chan gor kong mai dtaai chan yang mai dtaai chan yang kong haai jai
Even though I fell, I'll probably not die; I'm still not dead, I'll still breath.

??????????????????????????
mae tor tae sak gee tee yang mee wang
Even though truly disheartened by however much, still have hope.

????????????????????????????????
mae plaat-plang sak gee krang yang fan glai
Even though I blundered however many times, I'll still dream afar.

?????????????????????? ?????????????????????????
mae chan lom chan gor kong mai dtaai chan yang mai dtaai chan yang kong haai jai
Even though I fell, I'll probably not die; I'm still not dead, I'll still breath.

???????????????????????????? ?????????????????????
chee-wit man dtong dern dtaam haa kwaam fan hok lom klook klaan tao-rai
Life, it should be lived following your dream. No matter how many times you fall.

?????????????????? ????????????????????????
man ja bpai jop tee dtrong nai dtae ja yang ngai gor dtong bpai hai teung
It will go and end at where-ever, but whatever it'll be, one also should go on till you arrived.

????????????????????? ??????????????????????
???????????????????????????
tee soot taa man ja mai koom dtae man gor dee tee yaang noi
At the end, if it's not worthwhile, but it's also good that at least you can remember that once you'd ever progressed so.

?????????????????????? ??????????????????????????????????
kae kon tee cheua nai kwaam fan ja hay n?t ja neuay gor yang dtong dern dtor bpai
Only person that believe in dream, though it will be exhausting, will be tiring, will still want to walk on.

??????????????????????????
chan tor tae sak gee tee yang mee wang
I truly disheartened by however much, still have hope.

????????????????????????????????
mae plaat-plang sak gee krang yang fan glai
Even though I blundered however many times, I'll still dream afar.

?????????????????????? ?????????????????????????
mae chan lom chan gor kong mai dtaai chan yang mai dtaai chan yang kong haai jai
Even though I fell, I'll probably not die; I'm still not dead, I'll still breath.

??????????????????????????
mae tor tae sak gee tee yang mee wang
Even though truly disheartened by however much, still have hope.

????????????????????????????????
mae plaat-plang sak gee krang yang fan glai
Even though I blundered however many times, I'll still dream afar.

?????????????????????? ?????????????????????????
mae chan lom chan gor kong mai dtaai chan yang mai dtaai chan yang kong haai jai
Even though I fell, I'll probably not die; I'm still not dead, I'll still breath.

i watched wheel of fortune yesterday, the winning puzzle was the title of this blog.







SENSES FAIL LYRICS

"Buried A Lie"

Rest in peace girl, your death is such a shame
The paper said a bullet got in your way
But I smell foul play, possible poisoning
I had to bring you in for questioning
I went to your grave, dug up your body
Brought it to my house, where you lay

So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
For me...

I headed downtown, to share what I had found
It's not a suicide, it's a crime
I have a witness, it's clearly evident
There had to be someone else present
At the time of death, poisons in stomach
How could she pull it, if she's dead?

So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before the flesh decays
Away...away

I'll catch the murderer
And send him away
I'll get the evidence
From your last day

i sit in a dark room.

counting on fingers instead of cutting them off.

i got a headache from thinking of a lady in a blue dress.

its a cold morning, i stop at an am-pm to buy gas.

idropped her off and i said see you later blue eyes.

and yellowcard played "only one" on the way home.

more than once.